3 Birthdays

The celebration of each year passing by for us has its own importance. How changes have shaped us! We all experience different situations, makes new memories and look upon the life we have felt. The more interesting thing is there are people who have witnessed and been there to see us grow each year. Some are forever and some are for just 3 birthdays.

He came in before 3 days when I was about to turn 18. I'm that kind of person who is super excited for birthday but hates to grow up because this unknown creeping insecurity of aging reminds me I'm nowhere in my life and I will die in vain, yet, I love to celebrate because that one day is just for yourself. So, he asked me how do you feel turning 18; honestly, I didn't even know self. For every 2 days, he reminded me that I'm going to turn 18 and I kinda liked how he remembers it. On the day of my birthday, he gifted me with his most favorite song which he loves deeply. I'm always a fan of thoughtful gifts and when somebody does that it feels special.

One year passed by, and we had been through so much it felt like we have known each other for a long time. 19, yes I was about to turn nineteen, it felt huge and overwhelming, this feeling gets more doped up each year. He had said to me, this birthday he was going to give me a unique gift. I was only looking forward to his gift. The early morning, I woke up; he had already wished me at midnight but in the morning I saw my gift, he had made his acoustic tune of little things by One Direction... I was so intimidated and overwhelmed, it all felt surreal. Every 5 minutes I would listen to it and tell him how wonderful his gift is. I had worn my new blue dress and went out with my friends that day my friend bought me a beautiful collage of My photos Harry Potter quotes, Chandler Bing and his quotes decorated with beautiful yellow lights. And somehow I remember his gift the most.

Another year passed by, I had grown to be someone I never knew I can, and we felt lost, not close not far, just lost but together; as If we both only existed for each other, our hearts broken yet surviving. Now it's 20, this time I knew he won't be able to gift me something and I wasn't expecting but this time it was sure he won't be there next year on this day to wish me. These 2 years passed by with all the hurt, betrayal, blaming each other, but whatever happened we were together all the time now that I know he won't look back and wait for us. But he already had left my gift to my sister. I had a dream once where I was surrounded by all the blue things as it is my favorite color. I dream about it often, surrounded by blue accessories blue colored Pringles and diary with blue color; I had told him this dream, he remembered like always and asked my sister to gift it to me. I came to know about this after a few days of my birthday.

On all my birthdays with him, I would never wait for the gift but wait for how he always remembers me and the things I liked, he would go through all of this just to see my smile on the face because he always said: “your smile is what I love the most in world.” I would have wished on my birthday because that day there were high chances it might come true for him to stay, but I knew he never wanted to. If someone has been there for you each year when you grew up or you had the chance to be with them on their 3 birthdays you sure have known the person a little more than the rest.