Lost Self

Look what I have done 

Looking at the sun dancing to herself thinking that life is celebration..but look what I have done now is sitting where the sun can never catch me and thinking that life is the worst nightmare

Smiling cheering and happy always...but look what I have done now is blushing and being irritated 

From making friends to family.... now look what I have done is turning a friend into the partner

From never knowing if she has combed her or wore and outfit “that suits girl”..look what I have done is wearing best hairstyle I can wear and I don’t mind wearing a dress

From never getting a makeover...to actually start doing it...look what I have done is acting like a normal girl ..look what I have done 

From never allowing suspense to be suspense....to go on a date with it look what I have done

Form saying I can never love...to get lost in it.