Will To Unveil

You hold me down like gravity

What have you done

A dead flower flung to nothingness

I feel empty as a used up pawn.

Shouldn't I be celebrating

My freedom till I last?

Chained and caged I feel

In the blackhole of my past.

I watch my stars wink out

But this darkness I no longer fear

But the grief, it's unconsolable

And too heavy to bear

My silent screams unheard

I fail to cry, feel no pain

Like a tape stuck in repeat

That you thrusted into my brain.

Outside I smile and laugh

This mask, concealer of my soul

For so long have I worn it

Now it feels a heavy toll.

The scars within

Will they ever heal?

Or do I have to relieve them every night

The pain that I feel.

I walk like an old cliche

Naked, soaked in rain

With a will to experience

Anything but this pain.

Lonely in the crowd I feel

Holding each torn up petal

Fumbling around aimlessly

With dreams to settle.

Can I get out of the past?

Or get to live it with more care?

Oblivion is what I wish for

Now that I fail to fight the despair.