Undelivered Letters

I fall out of words these days

Is there a way I could show

It's may be because we don't speak anymore

As we allowed the space between us to grow.

Have I ever told

I never liked the color orange

And that the day I saw you in an orange shirt

My taste in colors agreed to change.

Have I ever told you

That my eyes searched you secretly

In the crowd, amidst all chaos

When you weren't even aware of me.

Have I ever told you

How my friends teased me with your name

Though reluctant to accept and reveal it

I felt so happy inside for the same.

Have I ever told you

During our late night talks

That your number I saved as a girl's name

To hide you from my folks.

Have I ever told you

Of all the surprises I planned for you

For your birthday, the graduation day

Which forever I guess would remain due.

Have I ever told you

Of all your pictures hidden in my gallery

And everytime I look at them,

Your smile, it again brightens in me, your memory

Have I ever told you

About our long walk dream of mine

And how I didn't want it to end

And tried pretending to sleep again.

Have I ever told you

I had tried to sketch you

And before I showed you one

I had vainly tried more than a few.

A lot is left unsaid

For I Never said, I know I can't

Maybe someday I would have

But this someday, never got a grant.

It's okay

And that's how I really feel

It's Just all those small things that remind me of you

But I know with time it all would heal.

A lot of love

And I wish for all success to come

May you find every second of Happiness

With every newness in your life you welcome.