Why Everyone Wants Me To Cry?

I wonder, Why everyone wants me to Cry?

Things are better left unsaid, matters to be passed over silence...

Now to move on from the clouds of the unsaid...

They want me to do as they say...

And wish to break my heart always, I wonder why did they then got me for staying, apart?

As they still see me happy from outside but, aren't aware of the sadness hidden inside...

They are so cruel I wanna say,

Cuz they love me the most...

You understand, you don't but I explained myself as always, as my words are so confusing as a maze...

 I'm moving high on my emotion...

And there is no one to say me its okay not to be okay even if its not okay...

I'm loosing my focus, Feeling exhausted just want to leave this world... 

Cuz I'm down I'm falling more and more rather then gaining a stage up...

Nobody understands, Nobody wants me as I'm...

I'm turning melancholy, moving dark just scared not to give up on...

Crying makes me down towards myself, I wanna live but it takes so much...

Not everything is same... 

Everybody knows me, not my scars;

Knows my face, but not me;

Knows my attire of present, but not the urges of past...

Feels like after speaking so much nobody wants to hear me...

Hearing is healing, Ignoring is hurting...

Please lemme down slowly I'm so lonely, nobody means me even if everybody wants me...

I find no door open, I lost my dignity, lost me, no sympathy...

I hate me, tears are drying up but my scars are getting wet...

I'm mess, a crumbling crap just leave me but, I don't want you to go...

Just stop it, you don't know how much I'm taking right now...

Even if I'm smiling out, I'm lost in...