The River Lost Its Depth

I tried to drown into the ocean of your love.

I thought it would be exhilarating.

To be heads over heels for someone.

I suffocated in

What seemed at first caring,

But were brutal waves of your love.

Loving me, for you, was an adventure.

Perhaps it was never true love.

It was a mere conquest.

For me,

I lost myselves in you.

I threw away my soul,

To be immersed in yours.

Was that love?

I wonder sometimes.

I used to feel like a river.

Giving in everything to its ocean.

You were my ocean.

You were my universe.

Now I feel,

What I did was self damage.

And not love.

I loved you.

Maybe I still do.

But, I never recognised when,

While loving you,

This river lost its depth

And became far detached from its source.