My Only Regret

Eyes closed, heart beating slowly, my skin too transparent to face the outer world, so I was kept hidden into something, all curled.

It felt I was in a liquid cube, carelessly kicking around and floating getting my energy from an umbilical tube.

I could feel the warmth and the velvet cushion around me, staying in this wet wonderful world of care was my heart’s only plea.

As months passed by, I grew stronger and had close attachments with my plasma bed.

The thought of world outside freaked me, then I could here a soothing sweet voice but no one could I see.

But a day came when the cushion around me started to drain out, it took me with it to the new brighter world and with me came a shout,

“IT’s A BOY”.

I was pulled away from my first abode, which had tube hanging out as it was still trying to hold.

I was helpless and all I could do was cry, they cut the tube away from my belly and I felt I would die.

But then wrapped in furry white clothes I was taken to my ‘MOTHER’.

The touch she had was softer and more tender then my liquid abode, and her kiss on my forehead made all my helplessness erode..

She then hugged and kissed me again, and what it did was it made me forget all my pain.

She said she loved me, then I knew that she was the one who gave me the nine months of care and love, that even trying being the best son in the universe, I would never deserve.

I too fell in love with her, but I could not say that to her and I was so torn…

I missed to propose my first love the day I was born.

I missed to express my feelings for her the same day she did to me…

This being the only regret of my life and always will be.

I still regret this but I can only repent for my mistake by saying to her ‘I love you, maa’ everyday of my life from the moment I learned to speak.