Mixed Up

Today, I know the truth

I think I know how I feel

I'm dumbstruck and mixed up

I truly don't know how to heal

You weren't there with me

When you were most supposed to be

It was supposed to be a special day

But it turned out to be nothing much 

Than another time period the sun lay

I was delighted to get another prized possession

To be awarded for something where

My heart and soul truly belonged

I was delighted to see the shimmer in that person's eye who didn't share 

Blood but a relation of admirations

But then I realized

All happiness was empty

As my eyes searched and scanned

The overcrowded but still lonely room

I knew it was bound to happen

Being alone, with thousands of eyes

Looking at me, but not those eyes

Who were supposed to be

A part of me was happy and confident

That this credit and success is all mine

But another part of me was dejected

For not able to share this with whom I wanted to.

I completely don't know

How this happened

You're drifting apart from me

I never imagined this, even in my wildest dreams

I feel I'm losing myself

The image of myself is blurring in my mind

I don't know what will it lead to

I don't know what will I go through

But still, all I'll say, 

I just hope that one day

Everything will change

And you will be the old and same