I Need To Be Me

There is a lot of darkness in me,

But I need to be me

I cannot fathom my inner self if I change to be your version of me

Unless I see the chaos that is me, how can I know what should change in me?

You see, first what is inside of me needs to come out and reveal itself to me

And once that happens I can use the arsenal to tackle the crumpled me

And crease by crease the operation has to be performed on me

Ironing out the folds that have through the years hardened me

Unfolding the forlorn wounds which by now should have left hold of me

Cleaning and renewing the thoughts which daily dwell inside of me

How can I do that unless I know whether good or bad resides in me

Let me make mistakes and fall down the drain so I am known to me

Let me do it when I am young when no responsibility is attached to me

Let me finish my share of shameful suffering when no soul depends on me

Let me live my regrets and falter and get up and falter and get up for the life of me

Let me be me, not a well behaved fake, so that when I know all that is me

The Creator can pick up the broken shards that once were me

And make the finest and glorious and most honorable Pottery