I Feel Numb
I Feel Numb
I feel numb,
I feel aloof,
No, not some disorder,
But an ache in my heart,
Which I feel no more.
The ache,
Which was so flashy before,
Which was so to the fore,
But now,
Now I feel nothing.
There's everything in excess,
The throbe,
The pang,
Except for the beatitude,
The hilarity,
That sometimes I feel,
Am I not worthy of that?
Are there any shortcomings in me?
That now I'm confused,
How to react!
When someone treats me well,
The way I ought to be.
My heart feels paralyzed.
I wish to love,
But restrain myself.
I just cannot help myself.
Now I'm just,
A deep soul
Residing in a lifeless body!