How It Feels

I’ve been smiling for a while now

Hiding all the pain

They think i’m a see through

but they’ll never see the trail

it has been quite a time

i haven’t let it out

i can see the mountain

which i doubt i’ll be able to climb

i don’t know why i feel this way

when i try to keep my problems at bay

the longer i try to resist

the bigger the problem’s list

i’ve tried to find my happy place

but i wasn’t able to find it

so i started to rest my case

thinking that it might get me lit