Empty Soul

How could I not know

That my soul is long gone

Was it the party

Where I felt alone

The dance and the music

All faded out

All I could see

Was that I was standing out

The evening was calm

with a beautiful tree

I don't think, 

I ever felt that free

The sunsets down, 

all the birds fly back

Now, only the buildings are intact

Again the demons were back into me

Making me lonely as if it was only me

Then I saw a boy

Far away from me

But I don't think

He even noticed me

I try to fit-in, in this race of life

But my back is always stabbed by a knife

God, is heaven a peaceful place as they say?

If so, please take me as fast as u can, I pray

The smile I put is just fake

Pls see through me, for god's sake

If crying is for the weak 

Then surely I am

But the world does not see

Bcoz I draw the blinds for them

I feel nothing, nothing at all

Even when the sun rises and brings a new dawn.