A Letter to Self

I know your face is heating up and you feel tears at the corners of your eyes but you really don't want to cry, because you think crying is a sign of weakness and you tell yourself that you are not weak. 

I know you are going through a lot

I know you are shedding tears inside

I know you are tired of being strong

I know you are tired saying that its okay everytime

I know you have pushed yourself even when you felt you could not

I know how you have got all the mornings out of bed no matter how hard it was

I know at times how you wanted to give up but you got through another day

I know that even if you have scars deep within yet you will be strong.

I know you are vulnerable, yet you will be always cool but not emotional. 

I know at times you feel like you needed a shoulder yet you stand on your own

I know how difficult is to deal with this emptiness yet you will deal with it just like u did before, just like you always have

I'm so so freaking proud of you...

I'm proud that, even though life hasn't been kind to you, you are ready to face each day with grace.

I'm proud that you haven't let life overcome you over completely, and despite all the reasons why, you still haven't given up. 

I'm proud that even if life clatters around you, even more, you will get back up again.

I'm proud that you haven't given up on yourself, even though I know how badly you want to.

I'm proud that you're still pushing through your healing journey.

I'm proud that you're still moving forward, no matter how hurtful you are.

And I'm proud that you're still holding on.

But believe me, this pain will heal, so will the emptiness

Time is the biggest healer. And this too shall pass.

Trust me that it is okay to simmer in your emotions, for now, it is okay to let your tears flow.

Be strong for yourself because no one else does