The Hurt You Caused
The Hurt You Caused
You met me when I was unwell and when I was weak
You took over, locked me in, you wouldn’t let me speak
I felt that I had no way out, no wy to escape this torture
I couldn’t see beyond each moment, I couldn’t see a future
Calling me names, taking me money, putting me down
I felt like the suffering was causing me to drowned
Self-confidence shattered already, you simply made things worse
With you I feel alone in this whole universe
I needed help, that you would never give
The way you treated me, made me not want to live
Sending me into a relapse for your abuse
Why did you do this to me? You had no excuse
Verbally hurt, physically hurt, dying inside
So many tears, so much I have cried
Cutting deeper with each wound you harshly stained
In my mind these words are now deeply engrained
Straight into psychosis I fell followed by depression
For my mental health, you caused so much regression
My trust in anyone had completely evaporated
I felt as though I was unworthy and that I deserved to be hated
Hospitalised again all because of you
You wouldn’t even accept it, or apologise for what is true
You said that you cared, and you said that you loved me
Simple lies, even to yourself, as this could never be
The pain and fear you caused, you could never see
Beaten down, the hurt you caused, I could hardly breathe
I ran never coming back for my own sake
The cracks were showing, I was beginning to break
Recovered now from illness again, stable and ‘sane’
The scars self-inflicted and caused by you still remain
But hey cannot compare to the internal scars which will last for life
they are the worst type of scars that cut deeper than any knife
I may be damaged, from an abusive relationship
But you see I always managed, to hold on to my grip
I may be alone now, but I am alone and free
I am happy now, for it just to be me
You could never completely have destroyed my soul
There remains a hole in my heart, but my heart you never stole
I am never defeated and I am stronger now than before
My strength to survive anything now is all that I can thank you for