Unusual Love

Love is very unique in its way, you can't even realize how it enters our life & when we finally realize, it was too late to push it over, the one thing we can do was to flow with the motion.

So, here I am presenting one such story of unusual love.

I met Samaira during my college days, we lived in the same hostel, but I never noticed her, until it's our first meeting, according to me though.

Yet, according to her, we have met before also. Still going back to the story, our first meeting was not that good.

It was around 11 in the night & I was sleeping, when she came to my room & asked if we have some sweats.

I was new in the hostel & my roommate knew that I had some, so she woke me up in instant & told me to give sweats to her.

I woke up in a grumpy mood, opened my cupboard and offered her sweats, she was really ecstatic to see the sweats. 

However, I was so furious about her behaviour, as I love my sleep dearly & she dared to wake me up. So the next morning, I bad-mouthed about her to one of my friends.

I thought I would never talk with her again, yet destiny has different plans for us.

On one evening, a random conversation took between us & that led to many more conversations.

Our choices were pretty much similar, so our small talks converted to late night chatting.

My opinion towards her started changing & our friendship was slowly blooming.

Our meetings increased & we started visiting each- other's rooms, as we were in the same course, so our bonding becomes even stronger.

Time passed & we became friends, we started hanging out in our mini-breaks.

Few months passed & we became best- friends, we started spending more time together, we started sharing our secrets, it was as if we want to know everything about each - other.

Soon our friendship was turning into something else & we were not able to conclude what is going on, we were just following the rhythm.

One night when I was returning back to my room, she randomly kissed on my cheek & wished me night.

I was a timid person, I couldn't process further, I just thought to walk back to my room.

Yet, suddenly my heart fluttered with her sudden touch & I kissed her back on the cheek.

She gave me a warm smile, but I felt shy, so I tip-toed back to my room.

Days passed & this night kiss became our tradition & soon I became a little comfortable around her.

Unable to figure out the situation, we were getting more closer to each - other & when it's time for going back to our respective rooms, we would feel emptiness in our soul.

Sometimes, I couldn't sleep at night, as my mind would be occupied by her thoughts.

My heart wanted to be near her, but my brain was throwing tantrums, however, I hold back my hesitation & shared my thoughts with her.

So, we agreed to sleep together, as many other girls were doing the same too, moreover, friends usually do sleepovers, so we thought it was normal.

This thing too became our routine, we would usually sleep together in my room.

We were sharing each- other's warmness & the feeling was ecstatic.

However, my mind was not in order, as in this stereotype society these things are not allowed & are believed to be wrong.

So, I started holding myself back, yet love was not meant for binding, it loves freedom & we were realizing it.

My heart & mind were in complete chaos, as if what is right & what is wrong.

However, she consoled me that we should flow with the motion, I was a noob in this process, so I started ignoring the facts & started living my life to the fullest.

Soon a girl named Maira joined our group & we became the mischievous trio, Maira was a cheerful girl, so she adjusted well with us.

Our friendship was growing day by day, but my heart was not stable. As jealousy was slowly grasping me.

I was becoming insecure as if Maira will snatch Sam away from me.

This feeling was eating me from inside & as a result, I was becoming annoyed & irritated with little things.

It was now becoming, all clear to me that I was in love with Sam, it's not a mere attraction, it's a feeling of pure love.

I was getting anxious about Maira & Sam's closeness, so I confessed my feelings to Sam, without wasting time.

To my surprise, Sam too was in love with me, I felt like that I was on cloud 9. Her presence made my heart flutter.

We started behaving like a couple in front of each other, but at the same time, we kept it a secret from others, as we don't want people to gossip about us.

Reality was hard for us, still we were trying best to make happy moments. 

Time was passing by & the feeling of jealousy was growing, but I kept it locked in my heart. As I don't want to hurt Sam in any way.

I was good at keeping secrets, so it was not hard for me, still, Sam figure out that something was bothering me. So, she forced me & in the end, I blabbered my feelings out.

She was indeed a gem of pure heart, she listened to my every word & consoled me that she only has feelings for me & even promised me that she will support me no matter what.

I was not that convinced, however, I love her, so I cast away these evil feelings.

Shortly after few days, our semester ended & vacations came & we went back home.

Despite her moral support my heart & brain were at war & even reality was giving me a hard check, soon when the burden of my heart was overloaded, I decided to break this relationship.

She didn't decline the offer, so we decided that we will behave just like friends. 

After the vacation we three shifted to a new hostel outside the campus, we started living in the same room.

Although, I didn't stay in that room for a longer period, as my mind was corrupted with thoughts of betrayal (as according to me how could she be happy after a break-up when all I could feel was a pain). I thought to give her proper space.

So, I moved out from that place one afternoon, without telling Sam. Maira was chilled with my sudden departure, as she even helped me in packing, but Sam was shattered.

My brain & mind were at war, I was not able to think properly, still part of my heart was feeling guilty for leaving Sam behind.

So, after thinking a lot, I called Sam to explain everything, as I don't want to lose such a precious friend.

She didn't pick up, so, I messaged her on all social networking sites, yet it was all in vain, as I was blocked from everything.

I knew this could happen, still, I felt hurt & empty. I got the freedom I want, but it was a waste as she was not there behind me.

I thought to meet her in college & clear everything out. But it didn't turn well, Sam shoved me off & told me to "stay away ".

I felt hopeless as if my life was sinking, yet a few of our friends asked Sam to settle out things & not broke friendship like this.

Finally, she agreed to talk with me & I patiently waited for her, she was not in a mood to listen, but I was not ready to give - up.

So, I sincerely opened my heart in front of her, this time I didn't hide any secrets from her.

She was annoyed & furious with my thoughts, she even scolded me a lot for hiding things, I apologized to her & seeing my honesty she melted down & accepted me again.

We both cried in each - other's arms & the burden our hearts were carrying, vanished away.

After a weak , a miracle happened & she shifted to the place where I was living. 

We followed the same routine, with secret dating, we even made new friends & Sam break the ties with Maira due for my sake.

Maira has sensed these feelings somehow, so she didn't interrupt us after- that. Although I felt guilty to shove her off, my heart was not ready, to share Sam with anyone.

The bitter truth of society was slamming us at every turn, yet despite that, we didn't leave hope.

Every time I felt miserable, she was standing behind me patting my back & uttering, " everything will be alright ".

In times when I felt lost, she would work as my guiding lamp & would show me the path.

When I feel sick, she would selflessly take care of me, although I was never kind to her, still, she didn't leave me alone.

I was experiencing a pure form of love & that made me a hopeless romantic idiot. I would even search the internet for ideas to impress her.

Days were passing by & our love was blossoming, we were stupid, young, naive, teens who were madly in love.

But all the good things, have a bad memory with it & our bad memory was our fights. Despite such understanding, regular fights were taking place between us, mostly due to my insecurity.

However, destiny or fate will bring us back together & will bind us more vigorously.

Yet there came a turning point, which made us apart for good & we even turned away, for not looking back.

However, love is not running away or giving up, it's standing & fighting for every moment.

 So, when we looked into each- other's eyes, our melting point initiated, leading to an explosion that brought us back again.

Soon the time came, where we have to finally part ways, as college life was about to end.

So, we decided, that we would not continue our relation & would gladly accept if one of us wants to move on.

Basically, we were in complicated relation, neither wants to give up nor want to stay.

My life was a mess & I guess it would be, still every moment with her was worth it.

Our relation made us mature in every aspect, it changed my arrogance into kindness.

Though we fight now also, yet it's not like before.

I love a girl, but it doesn't mean I am lesbian or bisexual, it's something different. Even I have many boy crushes in my college life too.

I am not interested in any type of girls either, it's just her that I fell in love with.

I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity & her flaming self - respect & that matter to me more than anything else. I love her & really feel blessed to meet such a pure soul.

I know many of you guys, won't understand this feeling & would love to criticize it.

However, we didn't choose it, our destiny chooses this type of love for us. We just opened our arms & accepted its wish.

Our story would never end, as, despite separation, we would cherish every moment in our heart of this unusual love.