Rest in Love
Rest in Love5 mins 230 5 mins 230
I am dying. My clock is ticking to end my circle of life with every passing moment. Here I am, fighting with death every single day just wishing to relish a few more sunrises with my love, to enjoy some more sunsets hand in hand, to see how blue the sky is, how green the trees are, and last of all, to be able to breathe - to be able to take in a big breath of fresh air deep into my lungs. These are the things which make me feel lucky when I see my body waste away right in front of my eyes with no control from my end. Ah...The power of Telepathy!
As I was remembering my fond memories and desires with my sole companion, here's a new message from him in my chat window! (Smiling thoughtfully) Let me read and reply to his messages and then I would continue with the story. (The online chat window read): Shooting Star: "Pinot Noir or Chardonnay?" Black Swan: "Excuse me !My doctor has advised not to consume alcohol!" Shooting Star: "Oh! Dont worry dear we will ask your doctor to consider you for a day.. :)" Black Swan: "Ok.. we will see to that! well, if you insist... its definitely Chardonnay! :D" Shooting Star: "So, what would you like for dinner? Snail Ravioli or Platinum caviar with Golden Beetroot? (Smiling) Oh I smell some lip-smacking food!" Black Swan: "Well, going by the increasing Cholesterol levels after consuming these exotic dishes, I would rather go in for a Salmon Greek Salad with Lemon Basil dressing." Shooting Star: "Oh Come on! It is only one day! How can you be so boring!" Black Swan: (Widely grinning) "Ok..ok.. you win I lose! You tell me how you want me to be dressed for the special occasion my love!"
Shooting Star: "Oh I want you to look the hot femme fatale in the evening!":P Black Swan (Frowning)" But you know I am not that type! :( I have never dressed as a seductress before, nor can dress that way now! Besides, you know I look ugly now. I have rough, wrinkled skin, no hair, stained nails and a decaying weak body. How can I ever meet your expectations? (Almost teary eyed) I really think the date wouldn't be such a good idea... you would be embarrassed because of me and I would never want that!" Shooting Star: (Feeling Sad) "You know sweetheart I am hurt today... I am very heartbroken to realise that I came across to you as such a shallow person who has completely no morals. But before you misconstrue my statement again, I want to tell you that I was joking when I said those things to you. All I need for a perfect date is your smile..I can't take my eyes off the beauty you radiate with that confident smile! :)"
Black Swan: (Teary Eyed):"Oh Dear! I am so sorry to have hurt you so much! I feel so bad now!" Shooting Star: (Happily)" Oh That's fine! Let it be! Let's forget this issue and be back to our happy selves again, all excited about the date!" Black Swan: "Yes.. meet you in the evening love! See ya! "*kisses*. Hi, Sorry for the delay. Actually my laptop constantly beeps with messages from my Prince Charming all throughout the day...my love, he never leaves me alone..my mornings begin with him and my nights end with him...chatting with him, listening to him, cherishing his soulful songs that he sings for me with all his heart. I live every day to the fullest with him. He stays with me throughout - all thanks to new technology and my laptop. Surprised? You might be thinking my love would be my partner with whom I have spent my life so far and I wish to spend some more. You are absolutely right in thinking so, except for the fact that we do that through virtual mediums like Messenger, Phone and Social Media. I have lived my entire life alone with no family and very few friends.
Loneliness had become my sole companion for everything happy or sad. I met my soulmate only 8 months back when I got diagnosed with Lung Cancer and had already started counting my days. He is my consultant oncologist who is treating me with utmost dedication, patience and empathy for the last few months. I connected with him online through an android application for a second opinion on my diagnosis and treatment. Since then, I have been sharing all my medical reports and health updates with him online, as he stays in a different city and considering my current situation, travelling is prohibited for me. I remember him asking me : "What's more important to you? Quantity or Quality?" I answered at once: "Quality". He had replied: "I promise you a quality life till the time you live and also a comfortable death when time comes." From then on, he has been looking after me with unconditional love and care. He is an epitome of humility, his warm smile and kind words would alleviate half the problems of the patients, and the rest would be resolved through his careful concoction of the most accurate medications.
I naturally developed very strong emotions for him and his dynamic aura even when very little communication used to take place outside basic care. Then gradually, he reciprocated my feelings and we delved deeper into each other in spite of knowing that this relationship has no time and no future. He is the one who has taught me to embrace each passing day and be grateful to life for giving me another chance to live today. He is the one who gave me the strength to start all over again as I wake up to a new day. Today, as he is in town just for me and I eagerly gear up for my first official date with my pen partner, amidst all the jitters and wonder swirls, all I wish is to have a new beginning towards the end.