Make Me Real Again

You abandoned me, how funny it is. I am feeling what I predicted a long time ago. This feeling is so much painful. You left me in the middle of my journey. I am not ready to accept the truth that you are not here.

Now I am living in oblivion, an endless loop of daily boring things. Busy days, regretful evenings and peaceful but unconscious nights. Months are passing by and I am getting punished everyday in my mind prison. Don't know when I am going to be free.

Living in your memories, watching everyday your social media account so many times. Waiting for your casual message to start a chat with you. Reacting on your daily instagram stories, liking every post of yours as a first watcher. Not commenting cause I know what it is called to be respectful to someone, specially you. I think, I am living in the fear of getting addicted to you day by day. 

This temptation of movies and web series is addictive and I had to choose them cause I want to feel distracted. But it doesn't work. You always have a strong and protected place in my heart. After all, you are not with me anymore.

 

Eyes are getting darker, mind is not responding attentively. I am feeling like drugged. As I take one step towards my healthy life, it seems like I am getting closer to my end with a double progressive speed. 

Feeling lost in this so cold world. Living a imaginary life between my addictions and responsibilities.

I am on the verge of losing myself in this virtual world. Now I want to get control of my life, again. Cause this sensation of loneliness is killing me from the inside. I want to feel something good again as I used to. I don't have so much left to lose. Help me, give me your hand and......

Make me real again.