Komorebi

She was everything I wanted to be and more..

I didn't notice her physique. But, her charm was alluring, rather hypnotising. She was enticing like the komorebi. She was radiating such potent light that the halo formed behind her made her appear like the godesses we see in movies and serials.

How could such a woman visit me? No one was interested to talk to me. People were curious about aliens but never me. I was nobody. And, so it was peculiar for such a spectacular personality to approach me.

"Hello! God has sent me to you."

"Me? No one ever..."

"I'm just following the orders. He wants you to talk to me. I'm your listener."

"Er... but..."

"I've limited time. Just puke up."

And, so I began.. haphazardly whatever was bothering me. From the time, as far as I could remember till date, I talked about my anguish, fears, misgivings and guilt.

"No happy moments? Not even one... Think hard but you have to." She insisted.

I scratched my head. I hammered my mind. I closed my eyes to visualise. From the wavy past I grabbed some time I still cherished.

First time talking to a boy, older than me...

Eating mangoes...

Watching a particular show...

I felt weird for they were insignificant and made no sense- so I thought.

"Carry on... I'm listening."

After I finished my account I asked, "Now what?"

"What do you think of me?" She changed the topic.

"You are smart, strong and kind. You have heard my supplication. You have made me feel light. You appear to be content and relaxed."

"Anything else..."

I chewed my words, "I-I-I want to be like you and beyond..."

"As...?"

"You are so boisterous. You can light up every heart. Your eyes have a certain spark that boasts of confidence and pride."

Suddenly, the light went off as if someone had switched it off. She stepped forward, ignoring the six feet distance! I couldn't resist her serene glow.

And, I came face to face with myself.

"Why can't this be you in reality? What's stopping you? You know the issues. You also know their cure. And , whoever said to you that you need to be what you are not?"

"Er... but.."

"Send your mind on a vacation. Like the effective bitter pill perform those activities everyday that make your productive, and love yourself a little more."

I opened my eyes.

Is it the rambling of my feverish mind?

Is it a prophecy from above?

So many 'is' began to baffle me. Hence, I put them together and dumped them in the dustbin.