In The darkness

The darkness in me .I don't deny it .I am fond of the darkness that prevails which holds ,I do not know how many divine secrets in it .I learned light is just a by product of the darkness .How much dark is me ,I ask myself .

I don't wear pentacle around .But I live a life so unique where I revert the concepts it represent .The darkness and shadow it has in it .

I still remember the night I got down the Rajahamsa bus and stood on a corner at Bengaluru bus stop waiting for Anand ...my heart was beating a hundred thousand times .But I was soon surrounded by a group of ladies who blamed me for affecting their business time.

I ran to a shop …I do remember and stood there waiting ,it was years ago .Darkness has such secrets where people sell themselves to feed stomachs .

Yes in the darkness people dare to take off the mask .But today mask so befits faces that we hardly can say what is the true face or which is the mask . At least among the strippers who dance in those darkness ,to an extent I believe do not pretend .Vera was a bar tender who always told me stories of many lives. She has traveled wide in this country and she empathetically listens to vivid details.

Religions which speak about light mostly is filled with darkness .Horrible descriptions of hell and sin fill in them mostly making God a tyrant who is ready to punish .Books spread hatred than love which results wars …cold wars or else .

Was it fair to burn down the herbalists the simple pagan believers who worshipped the nature and the forces that exist in cosmos .They were burnt for power hunger! Their hymns are never calling forth to kill each other. But to love .See God or God particles in everything and not describing a jealous God asking his worship or accept death .People these days are yearning for Renaissance that would lead them to each one's root.

Sitting near the pyre in Manikarnikaghat must have bind me to darkness and the wisdom hidden in it .I am on this path 

Where I find the Greek Goddess comes to my dream and me walking down stairs in to the depth of my underground or my unconsciousness which hold keys to many answers I seek .I still do not know the kali ,in her darkness has instilled in me the awareness of the rare combination of time matter and space .

In the darkness ,a little girl on the street got raped .A mad woman gave birth to a still born and she was surrounded by nothing but stray dogs .But do light bring justice .Do light expose the man who killed his wife making a note on her spine and hanging her brutally .

But darkness can't be blamed.. for evil in human .

The pubs go on in the darkness with songs and men and women girls and boys dance .In those dark restrooms virginity becomes meaning less thing to lose. It must be some ones right to decide it ..

In the darkness I have sought for mother's love in the cold brick wall .I have spent sitting down the special tree with unusual fragrance writing verses and I have gone in to meditation in the darkness seeking ultimate truths. 

Darkness ..is beautiful ,it makes me goddess who loves to be worshipped.....it makes me feel my innateness ..naïve true and naked