In Love With A Hopeless Person

I was sitting in the school garden, writing my to do schedule and suddenly interrupted by melodic voice I was addicted owned by my best friend SYDNEY KATZ.

She said - you free today?

Me - why?

She - can we do our projects at my house?

Me - of course... anything for you princess.

Ohh slip of tongue....

She - princess...huh....I liked it. Anyways now we'll go to my house together.

Then we both went to her house.

After completing project she offered me coffee and then we went a nearby park and we did a lot of fun ....walking around the park doing swinging.

Now I sat on the bench but Sydney continuously exploring the park and me ......I was just watching at her ...yes.. at her. She has a perfect persona. She is just like an Angel and most beautiful star of the God sent on the earth.... I could see her short blonde hair flips up and down as when she was jumping in joy. I lost in her beauty and and her thoughts again that how she smiles brightly, how she tucks one strand of hair behind her ear and the way she looks up with her deep black shady eyes. I was literally in heaven then I came in my sense when she called my name - Avery Thomas Kim where are you lost ?

Honestly my name never sounded so sweet like this before.

I said - No nothing it just....I just zoned out.

Then she came closer and whispered - Are you in love with someone?

I startled - No no that's not like .....

Then I hear her laughter....

She said - Relax Ms. Kim I was just kidding.

I felt lighter but her words kept bothering me.

Then after sometime we left for our respective house.

Days were passing, the one thing was common in all days and that was I always kept on thinking about Sydney.

This was totally weird and I was completely unaware of this strange but most beautiful feeling I have ever had for someone. I was struggling with my feelings and dealing with unknown version of me.

One day my another closest friend Austin came to me and asked - Hey dude! Are you Ok? you are acting so different for last one month. 

I tried not to tell him but I couldn't stop myself to tell him about my strange feelings and all.

Then he smiled and simply said - you are in love with your best friend and I guess I knew it from begining.

I asked him with a question look then, he said - it's obvious we can't control to have feelings for person, we can't decide it.

And most importantly look at yourself the way you look at her admire her then it sounds like a poetry.

Then he said go and tell her about how you feel when she is around. 

I told him - I'll do but later.

He said - All the best then.

He left and after that I went to my Music class where Syd was sitting in the chair holding a guitar and started singing.

This made the whole atmosphere very soul soothing.

I tried not to smile but I couldn't resist after I saw how her fingers were dancing around the string of guitar.

This beautiful moment passed very quickly and then she came closer and gave me a tight hug. I can guess that she wasn't ok. A tear just escaped from her eyes.

I asked - what happened ? why are you crying?

she said - I am leaving.

Me - leaving but where why ?

A lot of questions came across in my mind.

Then she told - my parents wants me to leave country for my higher studies.

That day I was totally broken. I wanted to tell her but I couldn't say a single word instead of "All the best my dearest friend".

Then she smiled and finally after 1 week she left for Los Angeles.

It has been 5 year since she left but still I have same feelings for her. She is still friend to me and unaware about my feelings. We talk to each other for hours. She laughs harder on my jokes and share her every little things.

I hope everyday that one day I'll make it possible. At least I'll tell her that what I felt about her......infact till today still feel the same and no doubt I'll have these beautiful and painful feelings as well for her till my last breath. I will wait for you till eternity my dearest best friend.....sorry the love of my life.

The End... but hoping for a beginning.