I must say you my love BYE (I)

In the beautiful cheery blooms I was wondering if I was dreaming but no it seemed real I was embraced by my love. A love that is so beautiful and that made me feel content about life. I look like so much in love. 

..." Do you love flowers that much Yumi? "....he asked me suddenly. Oh yes he took me to have a heart melt with those words.. YUMI he nicknamed me . It feels so good to hear him calling me like that. He again asked... Why ? ...and I just said because flowers are beautiful and harmless joy giving. He smiled and we just sat under the tree. 

My usual self that seems to be the most talkative ever was so silent and I was craving more for this silence that's weird for me yet it was happening. I was so in love with him again. He smiled through out but why I seemed to notice that he wanted to talk so much... I asked him.. " Why don't you go on telling me what seems to bother you? ". He was baffled for a minute and then he asked why do you love me? I said because you are you it was simple. He was happy and then again with a worried gaze he looked at me and said if it is okay to ask my hand for marriage. 

He knew I will be not okay with that question but still he asked this time I just told.. " Look I know everything is going great I love you but I don't want to marry... That's why I never dated and when you said its fine I said yes but that doesn't mean I will change my mind. " Clearly seeming like a upset person he still gave up the sadness saying he was sorry. We just got back in the view. I said him sorry to be harsh and tears fell from my eyes he knew it hurts me to be so rude to him and he caressing my face just nodded it's okay," I m fine don't worry about it." 

Another weekend with the same place; I loved it so we visited it again and  this time I asked him why he loved me?  I said never repeat my words because you were being you. He smiled and there was silence. I was getting more tensed up with why he seems to not answer... was he really hurt last time... And I got lost in thoughts..., " No... don't think that.... I love you... And the reason is Yumi because I got to see what Yumi is everyone knows how you are but to me I can feel you even if I can't hold your hand I can clearly tell what you think, feel and always tend to do... Dating you because I started falling for your nature but gradually Yumi you took me away I am filled with what you are I can't discover myself anymore... and I find losing my self more happier than being myself... that's why I am looking forward to love you more each day... I love the way you made me take a 360 degree turn in my life and without changing me or asking me to change or adjust. You adapted to me like water in any vessel and I was really moved. Thanks for the love that feels like blessing ...nothing more to talk nothing more to bother.. " 

...With a crying heart I said hey... let's breakup... Let's go away from each other... It seems so easy to fall in love but I don't have any strength more. He was having the same look from last time... I said I know you don't want to let me know how deeply you loved me... But you know I still know you better than anyone. Your love is for me the greatest gift let's put it here at rest forever... Let's go on keeping the love safe let's just... Stop here bye!.....