Healing : A Process Always!

It is said forgiving is hard, you can stay enraged for life. 

I never have thought with utmost care about this. Now, thinking about all, I thought of an answer to all the questions I had while moving on from a certain experience. They use to bother me and make me overwhelmed from time to time, and even with so much time passed it seemed somehow impossible to overcome. 

But once in a while, it urged me out of nowhere that......

Yes, this is the answer... 

The thing is,

there are things that however we try yet we aren't able to process it towards forgiving, that feelings of utmost pain never reduce! People call it overthinking or anything but that's not the case, even if it is overthinking but not always is it? 

I guess NO! 

not because someone has hurt you purposely or mistakenly, you know bad sometimes bad memories or worst past experiences may have occurred just by mistake. Yet you still don't have the courage to court your heart to forgive and forget. That is because you are not angry with the person but because your scars haven't healed. No one knows what it takes to forgive..... You actually need to bear that pain yourself again beyond everything and have to forgive. What a strange feeling is this Nah! 

Over time I usually notice and have understood that you are accompanied but never together .......

understand this, 

people are adjacent and not together with you. You are alone in every situation because this is the utmost truth of life, but the words and at times support of people give you strength and make you feel someone is with you it's a psychological thing.

In the end, you need to understand that with forgiving and forgetting should also FORGIVE yourself from an unknown guilt, an unknown anxiety that burdens you in the process of moving on from something or someone who has hurt you in known or unknown ways!! 

That's all, it may sound crazy and complicated but I want to tell you this as just it has happened, I just cannot reduce it. Healing is a process always... this has its own unique style and once you heal you understand but it's a process because it follows an uncertain pattern in life and just like steps are completed you are ready with results. This takes time it is a process always!