Her Diary

Moon: “dadda!!!!shall we go to meet mumma???”/*she said with a cute pout on her face*/

Jin: “sure my little princess,but first you have to take bath and get ready my love”/*I told while lifting her from the bed*/

Moon: “ok dadda….i will wear mumma’s favourite color-yellow frock”/*she said while curling her hand around my neck*/

Jin: “what about dadda’s favourite color,you don’t love daddy???”/*I said while pouting*/

Moon: “ohooo dadda,you act as child….fine I will wear both of your’s favourite colors….i.e. yellow and pink HAPPY NOW”/*she said while chuckling*/

Jin P.O.V

“y/n thank you for such a lovely gift,I just love Moon,she became my world after you left me….”

You may be wondering who is MOON and what happened to Y/N

Moon is my 2 years old daughter and Y/N was my love,my bestfriend,my everything….

Y/N died in a car accident 3 years ago….

Now you maybe wondering how moon is 2 when Y/N died 3 years ago

Let’s go back to the time when it all started…..

End of Jin’s P.O.V

Y/N diary…..

Day-1 High school

Date-xx/xx/xxxx

Dear Moon,

It was my first day at High school and I met someone who is really good looking,but I am not so beautiful,I saw him in school lobby,I don’t know his real name but he call himself “WWH” i.e. WORLD WIDE HANDSOME…..

Don’t you think it’s so much….i know he is handsome but this is too much…he was surrounded by girls and boys….i only saw him once…I don’t think so he is going to notice me…..

I am here for studies and to maintain my grades so that my scholarship will be there so I don’t have to think so much amount him….

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!i’m going mad….anyway that was it for today….

Good night

Y/n

 /*time skip*/

After a week

Date-xx/xx/xxxx

Dear moon,

It’s been a week since I last saw mr.wwh ……tomorrow we will be having a class test about all the topics we studied in last week….and I am happy because I have updated my notes….and I am ready for the test…but I don’t get the chance to make any friend they all think I am ugly and nerd,I agree I am a nerd but there is a reason behind it…anyway that’s all for today…

Good night

Y/n

/*next day after school*/

Date-xx/xx/xxxx

Dear moon,

You know what happened today….i was sitting on front bench as usual andddd mr.wwh came and sat behind me….i was literally shocked….but I gathered truth and asked him why he is sitting beside me…

/*flashback*/

At school

Y/n: “hhhhelllo….mr….why are you sitting here????”/*I said awkwardly*/

Jin: “wae???why can’t I sit here???is this seat taken???”

Y/n: “n…noooo”

Jin: “am I making you uncomfortable baby girl???”/*he said while smirking*/

Y/N: “nnoooo not at all….you can sit,but I want to know why you are here suddenly”

Jin: “actually baby girl,I need help in passing my class test and you will be helping me….understood”

Y/n: “nopeee!!!!i am not helping youuu….”

Jin: “you are the only one I can ask because all others haven’t studied anything and I don’t want to fail…you know na sadness will not look good on this handsome face”

Y/n: “hahahahaha,fine but only this time”/*I said while laughing*/

/*back to present*/

So I helped him and in return he told me that he will help me in becoming self confident and help me loving my true self…

I made a new friend…yeahhhhhhh….i’m very happy today…..

Good Night

Y/n

/*next day*/

Dear moon,

You know mr.wwh asked me to help him studying, I said yes and we are going to arrange a 1 hour study meet every day….except weekends because on weekends he have to visit his parent…I sometimes wonder how it’s like to have parents,siblings????i haven’t seen my family….they left me alone in hospital….i grew up in an orphanage…so our study meet is going to start tomorrow as my makeover session…

Fighting…

Good Night

Y/n

/*day after*/

Dear moon,

Sorry baby I am late…I was busy in teaching jin….god this guy is god of dad jokes…it’s really difficult to make him study…you know we studied together for tomorrow’s class and he told me to shift to lenses instead of my Glasses… ….let’s wait he told we will go to buy lens together tomorrow…

Hope I will look good in lenses…

Good Night

Y/n

/*next day after school*/

Jin: “y/n ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!wait we have to go to lens shop…”/*i shouted*/

Y/n: “ohhh yes,I forgot….let me get changed then we will go…”/*I said*/

Jin: “fine…meet at our usual place in 15”/*I said and went toward our study spot…*/

After 15 min…

Y/n: “jin let’s go shall we???”

Jin: “yup let’s go….”

Y/n P.O.V

/*we brought lenses and came back*/

Dear Moon,

It’s only being a week and we have came very close,jin Is very open and funny guy….he even told me about his family,her mum,elder brother and father….he even told me how difficult it is for him to prove himself infront of his parents because his brother is very successful business man….i wish I could help him in more ways…

You know he told me he want to become an IDOL in future….i hope he can achieve his dreams…I would be his first fan and forever supporter….

Fighting jinie

Good Night

Y/n

/*TIME SKIP*/

After 2 years…

Dear moon,

It’s been 2 years,me and jinie are best friends forever….i can’t hide my feeling toward him,it hurts a lot….but I don’t want to destroy our precious friendship and also don’t want to be an obstacle in his future journey I have to be there for him in his journey of becoming an IDOL…

Jinie I love you but I can’t tell you…I tried so many times but I failed every time

I don’t know when I started falling for you…

Maybe it’s when we fought a lot for food…or

Maybe it’s when you asked me to act as your gf infront of other girls to avoid their fangirling…or

Maybe in those sleepless nights when you cried on my lap like a baby because of family pressure….or

Maybe when you helped me finding my true self……or

Maybe when we spent whole night bitching about our professors…or

Maybe when you came to my dorm for movie nights while feeling alone…or

Maybe when you comforted me when I missed my family so much…or

Maybe when you brought ice-creams and chocolates while I was having periods cramps…

I don’t know when it happened but it happened somehow between these moment…

Somewhere in between our little fight I fell for you Mr.WWH…

Tomorrow jinie’s audition is there for bighit, and I will be there to support him…

Good Night

Y/n

/*next day after audition*/

Y/n: “How was it???u did well right….tell na jin I am tensed”/*I showered a lot of questions when he came out of the audition room*/

Jin: “I don’t know Y/n,I did my best….hope they will choose me..”

Y/n : “don’t worry you will get selected…come I have a surprise for you”/*I said while dragging him*/

Jin: “Surprise???? Where you are taking me Y/n—ahhh??”

Y/n: “tadaaaaaaaaa----we are having your favourite food….my piggy….”

Jin: “ohhh Y/naaahhhh!!!!!!you are best”/*he said hugging me…*/

/*at night*/

Dear moon,

Why you are making it hard for me…jinie???why….i can’t tell you how much I love you….and I can’t stay like this…what I am going to do…I am feeling like crying moon………….

Good Night

Y/n

/*Y/n cried a lot and fell asleep while crying*/

/*next day*/

Knock at door…

Y/n: “waeeee…..whose there???i am sleeping go back…”/*I yelled in half sleep*/

Jin: “Y/n aaahhhhhh…open the door I have a good newssssssssss….”/*he knocked again*/

y/n: “ahhh piggy I am sleeping…..go back…”/*I said waking up from bed*/

jin: “will you open or should I come from window???”

y/n: “ahhhh!!!!!!!wait I am coming”/*I grabbed my pants wore it and opened the door*/

/*jin rushed towards me and hugged me and started crying…this guy*/

Y/n: “what happened jin???why you are crying????”/*I panicked*/

Jin: “i…ii……got selected Y/n ahhh”/*he said while sobbing”

Y/n: “wao that’s great new,but why you are crying????”

Jin: “because I am very happy and y/n I have a bad news as well..”/*he said pouting*/

Y/n: “wae???what???”

Jin: “I have to join training for 6 months so I have to leave tomorrow and I will not get chance to meet anyone….”/*he said with a sad face*/

Y/n: “yaaaaaaaaah!!!!stob it,you know na sadness don’t look good on this handsome face..i am very happy for you…”/*I said hiding my sadness*/

Jin: “but Y/n I will miss you…”

Y/n: “I will always be there for you piggy,I am your first fan mr.WWH and always remember if anyone there or not I will always be there for you in one or other form…okay piggy??”

Jin: “thank you sunshine….(y/n’s nickname),I will be leaving today night for seoul you will come to see me off na…”

Y/n: “ofcourse…jinie….i will…but first I want an autograph from the future IDOL….who knows I will get a chance later or not???”/*I said jokingly*/

Jin: “yahhhh!!!!!!!!don’t say like that,you are stuck with me whole life”

He signed on my journal….

/*later that night*/

At station…

Y/n: “jinie…I have something for you…open it when you feel sad and alone okay…”/*I said handing him the gift*/

Y/n: “Take care and eat a lot don’t starve okay mr.WWH….”/*I said with tears in my eyes*/

Jin: “you too sunshine…I will call you whenever I will get time…”/*he kissed gently on my forehead*/

/*after coming to me apartment*/

Dear Moon,

Today he left to achieve his dream,I am also starting my training tomorrow to keep myself busy…but I am going to miss him a lot…

I will tell him my feeling on the date he will release his first group song…

/*Y/N cried badly….and fell sleep peacefully*/\

/*after 2 months*/

Jin: “I am feeling down it’s been 2 months I haven’t talk to Y/N..”

/*he opened Y/n’s gift*/

A mirror?????

A note:

Y/n: “so my piggy is feeling down huh….just look at the mirror and see how handsome you are….how much you have worked to reach till there don’t give up,you have got this,don’t feel down my piggy eats a lot and laughs a lot and I know how sensitive you are don’t worry your work will payoff so keep going…

Fighting …

I am always there for you…we will meet soon…”

Y/n

everytime I feel sad I looked at the mirror Y/n gifted me….and it cheered me up

/*day before jin’s debute*/

Dear Moon,

Tomorrow I’m thinking of confessing my feelings to jin …I imagined our future together…in which I will finally have a family of my own our little daughter named “Moon”,

Who will be cute as seokjin…and nerd as me….we will all those things which I missed doing with my family….me and moon will together cheer for “jin” in the crowd….no one can replace you jin….if you will not share the same feelings as mine ….i hope one day I can make you fall for me and hope it won’t be too late…

Good Night

Y/n

/*time skip*/

Day of debute….

Jin: “my group name is BTS and we are 7 members….we all have become a family now and today we are going to debute…I have invited everyone my parents and specially Y/n,it’s 6 months since I saw her last time…”

/*after debute back stage*/

 y/n: “jinie…you were awesome….”/*I said hugging him*/

other members: “woahhhh!!!hyung…you girlfriend???you didn’t tell you ahd a girlfriend???”

jin: “hey,she is my bestfriend not my girlfriend…my girlfriend will be someone extra ordinary not like Y/n”/*he said while laughing*/

Y/n: “I have some work jin,all the best for your next song…byeeee”/*I ran off while crying and dropped the letter while running off somewhere in path*/

Jin: “ohhh…what she dropped”/*I picked up the letter and started reading*/

Letter of Y/n for jin

 

Hey piggy,

I know you hate me calling you piggy….but I love seeing that little pout you make when I call you piggy…

I am sorry but I can’t keep this to myself anymore even after knowing that this action of mine can destroy our friendship…

I fell for you jinie…don’t know how?when?why???but I did…I don’t know if you have the same feelings..but I had to say this….

I don’t know what the future holds…but I will always be your supporter and first fangirl ever…

I even imagined our future together,I am sorry I am such an emotional fool…hope you will not break off our friendship after reading this letter…

Y/n

Suddenly I heard a car crash I ran toward the spot….after seeing the scene I froze there…

My Y/n was lying on the ground covered in blood…

I hold her body in my hand….and ran towards the hospital while my teammates took care of the drunk driver…

/*at hospital*/

Doctor: “please take miss Y/N to Operation theater,her condition is very critical…and I want one family member to complete the formalities at reception”/*he said while hurrying towards O.T*/

Jin: “hello mam,can I get the patient application form….”

Receptionist: “yeah but may I know you what’s your relation with the patient??”

Jin: “she is my best friend..”

Receptionist: “sorry sir only a family member can fill the form….”

Jin: “but she is an orphan and she don’t have anyone..”/*it’s then when it hit me that I insulted the person who loved and supported me the most in front of my new family….*/

Jin: “please let me fill the form….”

Receptionist: “okay sir,but it’s on your own risk…”

Jin: “Thank you mam”

/*after 6 hours*/

Jin: “it’s being 6 hours they took her to O.T”

Doctor came out..

Jin: “doc..how is Y/n…???”

Doctor: “I am sorry mr.jin but don’t have much time…it’s better if you hurry up and meet her”

/*I rushed into Y/n’s room where she was lying on bed half lifeless*/

Y/n: “piggy…..you are here,I am happy for you…please don’t be sad if I will leave….i will always be there for you in one or other ways….”

Jin: “Y/Naaahhh I am sorry,I didn’t realized my feeling for you…how can you hide such a big thing from me huh???”/*I said while crying on her chest*/

Y/n: “shit….you got the letter….jinie…don’t force yourself to say something just because I am dying…move on in your life be successful and always remember I was ur first fan ever…I love yoy my piggy…”

/*her hands dropped after saying these things to me*/

I lost my Y/n,I lost my best friend,I lost my sunshine…..

I lost my everything just after realizing what she meant to me…

I cried like anything holding lifeless body on my Y/n…

/*after a month I got a call from the land owner*/

Land-owner: “hello,am I talking to mr.jin???”

Jin: “yes…whose this???”

Land-owner: “it’s miss Y/n’s land-owner sir,can you please take miss Y/n’s belonging from apartment she gave your number as emergency contact…”

Jin: “okay,I will stop by and take her things…”/*again her memories flooded back to my mind the way she laughed,they way she comfort me,the way she fought with me*/

/*at Y/n’s apartment*/

There were not much things her cloths,her books,our photo albus and her journal….

Jin’s P.O.V

I took all those things and came back to my apartment…

I sat down and started reading her journal….

Her whole journal after high school school was full of our moments,her love toward me our parties,bunks,movie nights…and so many thing…

She wrote her life in that journal…

After reading half of the journal I realized how much she loved me but never let me know about it so that I can fulfill my dreams….why Y/n why….

How can I be so stupid….i started crying…

When I reached the last page it was her last entry of day before my debute…

Where she mentioned about Moon and her dream of having a family

I cried I cried very hard….i was not able to fulfill her one and only wish…to have a family….

But Y/n I will fulfill your wish now….

/*after a year of Y/n’s death*/

Jin: “now, I am successful Y/n and I am going to make your dream come true”/*I said while sitting beside Y/n’s grave*/

Yes y/n I am going to adopt a baby girl and will name her MOON just how you thought…she will be our baby…whether you are there or not you will always be her mom….

/*End of flashback*/

/*present days*/

Moon: “dadda…..dadda…..dadda…mumma will be waiting na please help me getting ready….”

jin: “yes my little sunshine..mumma is waiting let’s hurry up”/*I said while dressing her up in yellow frock and pink hairband*/

jin P.O.V

you know y/n our moon is very cute like her dad and she is very innocent like her mum….i wish you would have seen her…I wish…Y/n

I love you Y/n and I love my little sunshine much more than you…

Thank you Y/n for giving me a reason to live on….for giving a hint of light in the darkness of sorrow…

You were correct no matter what you are always there for me in past as Y/n now as my princess Moon…..

Thank you everyone,hope you like this oneshot….

please keep supporting me….