Forever Fantasy

It was a cold evening, and I felt the chillness down my spine as I was staring outside my bedroom window, the only thing that I was able think of was his warm hoodie that I wore the night before at the beach and his warm hug which I received from him years ago while I was in a bad mood, I really wish he hugged me often though our relationship is completely not a romantic one from his side, to be precise he friend-zoned me a long time ago but I was in love with him & he knew it though I never mentioned that to him.

Years before, he came home and I hugged him tight, and he hugged me back and told me everything will be alright, he held my face in his hands and kissed me on my forehead, and I still remember the feel of that warm hug and his not so hard, soft lips brushing on my forehead, and the knots in my stomach as he held my face, maybe that was the minute I fell in love with him in a romantic way!!!!!

I always loved him a lot but that was the time I fell in love with him like a girl loves a boy, maybe I was not attracted to him till then, and it was only the emotional love that was there between us till then, I'll never know!!!!

"Jenni" mom called, and I turned around to realize that I was still at home, I had to have my dinner and a whole set of daily chores to accomplish. Life didn't sound easy without him as he was thousands of miles away from India and me in the City of California, I will never know how much he loved me, but I loved him with all my heart & soul though I could never tell him that I loved him romantically, though he loved me enough to take me on long drives, dinner and shopping, but never romantically. I always awaited the month of December as he came back to India for his vacation and tomorrow is the day he'll be back after a year!!!!!

The Airport was filled with people and at that moment I looked at that sunshine face, and his majestically manly figure, his half-grown beard, his black shirt, looking just the way I love, ever good looking, he came near me & whispered in my ears -

"You look beautiful & ugly as ever" and he laughed.

And I could just gleam

He talked about his plans to get married this time, and asked me to do my higher studies in California too, which I was already planning, our chat was so good but I had to come back home. At home, I had plenty of time to think & I really wished he would ask me in marriage which is purely a forever fantasy!!! We were planning to meet in the upcoming weekend, which I was already looking forward to.

And at last, weekend was here and I got ready to meet him like a teenager, and I desperately wanted to hug him today, and was willing to do the same but the Public Display of Affection in India is considered to be a crime, and I laughed to myself on the thought of that, At last, I met him in the usual spot we always meet and I couldn't resist so I ran to him & hugged him tight and he hugged me back, And I told him that I love him, he didn't say a word, he looked at me in my eyes and started kissing me on my lips, his soft lips on mine, a warm feeling as he kissed me even more passionately, he hugged me tighter as he continued kissing me.

I heard my mom calling out my name "Jenni" only to realise me Jennifer Antoinette Pierce, has dreamt about Jeremy Neon Joel all again, in a different way each time, wish it was true at least once !!!!