Delusional Love

You think I didn't see the way you smiled at her, the way you looked at her, the way you held her. I could see how she meant the world to you, how her smile made you happy, how her voice calmed you.

I used to be delusional about us. I used to think our love was the perfect definition of love that people kept dreaming about, and now when I see the love you have for her I realize I was such a fool.

You might think when you caught me staring at you two, that I am hurting inside but guess what I'm not.



I stopped hurting the moment I realized how pure is the love you have for her, I stopped mourning for your loss the moment your eyes lit up when she rushed to hug you. I realized how delusional I was being about the idea of love- the idea of us.

I tear my gaze away from you and closed my eyes, reflecting back on every single moment that we had once shared. Now that I know you're happy I want to be happy again. I'm swallowing every honest word you once said to me and burying it deep in my heart, I'm finally letting the memories we once created go away from me, I'm not going to hold onto your shadow anymore. I'll be holding onto the memory of your happy face and move away from here happily.

And I promise, I won't be delusional hereafter, but that doesn't mean my love was any less for you.