Blue Dismal Moment

The mellifluous chirping of the birds was replaced by the ear-stinging honking of the vehicles. The sky was obvious blue besides allowing the sun's beam to shower us with their warmness on a cold winter day.

((The sky was never purely azure rather the beams being there.

I never understood the above line well before.))

Exams are so tiring. I know you can feel me. Outrageous.

Anyways, when you realise that you finally have a crush, what's your reaction? I know its a silly question but I wanna know how it feels.

Is it something one-sided or he/she likes you too?

Like what?

We were at our coaching Centre and he was sitting at another table. Every time he spoke, I caught my breath. It was for the first time that I found a boy who was appealing to me. I remember when the previous week we were sitting side to side and his leg touched mine, it sent chills down my spine. While I was gasping for air to overcome just a millisecond happenstance, he touched my arm with a finger and kissed it. It was a usual gesture which we do when by mistake our leg hit someone or something. 

But when he did that, I don't know where was I.

When I had left that morning, I decided to talk to him a little more. I *decided* so because I was an introvert.

I wasn't like my best friend; Fair skinned, super-intelligent, one who wore costly outfits and most importantly I wasn't an extrovert like her. I didn't know how to talk to boys and how to snatch their attention.

He was wearing a denim jacket over a hood. Oh damn! What he looked. That dusty skin colour, those eyes covered by specs a toughness in his voice and the urge to focus when doing a question was impressive.

Our batch finally ended. All vacated one by one. Only I, he and my besty were left.

It was then he turned and shot his eyes straight forward as if focusing on something beyond the shoulder. He started to say something but first swallowed his nervousness. I was standing there, staring at him, as stationary as a statue.

Then from out of the blue, he spoke, "Hey, I like you. Will you be my girlfriend?"

I stood startled there and once again the air evacuated me. This time not because of satisfaction or exhilaration but because of the exhaustion of the situation. I wanted to run from there in a way no one sees me.

But I was standing there, trying my best to coat my face with contentment and to give my lips the perfect curve of a happy moment smile for I knew that my best friend would say a YES to his proposal. 

That was the day and today is the moment, I never let my mind think of him. Though at the time it drifts, I am an expert in hiding my feelings and so they both are happy.

But you promise me one thing that my words will only reach you. No leaking of my silly feelings. Because only you know that I have liked him too fondly to be anxious of his sight.

As of that afternoon, some remembrances never abandon your bone!