Beauty Of Love

As sun sunk, I felt my heart sinking too. In the dark abyss.

It has been years since she left me but still it feels like yesterday. Everyday I sense myself getting distant, distant from life, distant from emotions, distant from existence.

What happened in past is past yet I feel devastating remorse, I just wanted to be with her, spent my every moment with her but why? why? I don't know why that happened. Why she left me. Now I only posses memories of moment we spent together. I remember talking for hours with her. I remember waiting for her text. I remember her beautiful smile that always made my heart burst.

When I saw her for the first time I had no clue that she would be going to become my life yet it happen and as the people say.... good things doesn't last very long. And that's exactly what happened, My happy life eventually came to end with unimaginable rainstorm of pain.

She lost interest maybe? Maybe she found someone better? Maybe she started to hate me. I could only guess, reason being that she never told me. I wonder what should I have done to making things right. Wonder if I could really stop her. But now it doesn't really matter because it's all in the past. 

Still, This faint clap of thunder reminds me of the time when I and her were together. This chilling cold breeze reminds me of the moments when she used to cuddle me. The raindrops remind me of the moments she was near. The smell of salt reminds me of our love story. Everything remind of the past.

A lone tear fell down from the corner of my eye, I didn't want to cry in front of her so I tried wiping them off. But somehow tears seemed to continue flowing down my cheeks. It's probably not healthy to think that way but it feels right at this moment.

I stood up from where I was laying on the grass and began to walk away. Walking around the empty field, away from the house. Away from home. To somewhere I'll be most likely forgotten. Just like everyone else will do, leave me behind and forget about me. Well... at least there won't be much people who would remember me. At least that means they won't forget about me forever.

I sat on a bench in front of a small cemetery. A few headstones caught my eye but mostly I gazed at the ground while silently sniffling. After a few minutes my crying had finally stopped, and the wind slowly calmed down. All that was left was an occasional rustle here and there. 

The sun has gone back to where it started, and I can no longer see the stars. However I'm still able to make out some scattered dots of light.

There are a few birds chirping from afar, they're singing happily, they seem to be enjoying the night. It almost sounds like a song. Almost a lullaby. They sound so happy and carefree, unlike me, they don't have the burden of someone missing their soulmate. Even though I miss her, she won't come back. e wouldn't want to anyway. 

"Hey," I whispered softly as I laid my head against the cold stone wall, "I miss you."

A sudden flash appeared before me, followed by blinding white light. After the blinding light vanished my view returned to me. I looked up and stared into the bright blue sky. It seemed more blue than usual. 

The sky was clear and there wasn't any clouds, and I could see millions of tiny pinpricks of stars. Some lights seem like they're close enough to touch. The starry sky felt amazing and peaceful. 

I closed my eyes for a short while, trying to enjoy this moment.

This is something I wish I could live in forever.