Back to you

I slammed the door of his house and got into my car. He had never made me this furious before. I start the engine of my car and tears start to roll down my cheeks. I start the radio to stop the train of thought. But those songs feel like a distant dream, just like our future. I drive aimlessly on an empty road on a cold evening in winter. The cold breeze makes my body shiver. I wonder if this winter will become my least favorite. While driving Aimlessly, I pass the road of our favorite cafe. It Surprisingly looks pale even with bright lights. 

'You could break my heart in two

But when it heals, it beats for you

I know it's forward, but it's true

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to

When I'm lying close to someone else

You're stuck in my head and I can't get you out of it

If I could do it all again

I know I'd go back to you

I know I'd go back to you

I know I'd go back to you' 

The song starts to play and suddenly the lyrics reach my ears and I am transported back in 2019 when I fell for him.

I was returning back from the same cafe after meeting him. We had a good time. I was driving my car and was listening to the same song. This song made me miss him a lot. I had this urge to hug him. I took a turn and went to the cafe. Luckily he was still there. I got down and hugged him. It felt so surreal. 

The song ended and I was back in the present. I felt pain in my chest and again I was having the urge to hug him. I drove back to his house and rang the bell. He opened the door as if he knew I would come back. His face had a mix of worry and 'I knew you would come back' expressions. " Let me talk," I said while panting. " I know we are fighting like anything from last week. But I want to tell you that I would do this only with you. I am ready to have fights only with you. If I am to have a relationship then it wouldn't be with anyone else. If I could do it all again, I would go back to you." I hugged him while saying "Because you are worth it. You are worth the fights and dull days." He hugged me tighter as always.