Am I A Monster?

Her heart is black!

"She eats people's happiness, that is how she lives." said her mother. Every time she laughs the world cries and every time she weeps it is a greater disaster. So she keeps that face without a smile or sadness.

The day she was born there was bloodshed in the proximity. She took away her parent's happiness binding them in a lifetime curse. Each person who saw the baby was scared to death. They tried to kill her multiple times only in vain.

As a kid, she lived away from people in her own imagination. The only way she connected to the world was through stories she read, stories of princesses, castles, and kings. Poor little soul, she thought that she was the protagonist, she hardly knew that she was the villain of the story.

She wanted a prince to rescue her from something she wasn't sure of.

Indeed, there came a prince, a knight, who took all her sadness away and bit by bit connected her to the world.

Like everyone else he did pay a price: a prick in his heart for every moment she smiled which was taken from his lips. In the end, all he was left with was a bleeding heart and a solemn face.

One day the truth was revealed; agonized by her real self and beholding the destruction she caused she left the hand she was holding and ran into the deep dark mazed cave.

No one came to save her because that was what she wanted. She let everyone free of all those curses, the prince, her parents, and every other beloved. But she never felt warm again.

Everyone who tried to care for her had to give a large sacrifice. So she is cruel and emotionless. She cuts off every person who cares for her. She runs away from every happy place, every caring person even if that resurfaces her emotions.

She did not choose but she had to be this. Every word she spoke, every dream she dreamt, everything she thought of just happened.

Even if she wanted someone to die or the world collapsing right in front of her eyes it did happen.

The pain is not that she is evil, the pain is hurting others kills her even more. She is just waiting for the day when this pain will end, the day she dies.

She knows that she is the evil force. So she has shut herself from the world locked up in an isolated place. She has shut herself from her own self. She shrugs off every warmth and love. Her story is not a classic fairy tale as witches do not have princes saving them from the monster inside them.

She was born without desires, she has no appetite for food. She goes without eating for days, maybe this would help her to die sooner.

Even if she has a black heart its is still a heart that needs love and care.

Either she dies recklessly of such hunger, loneliness, and self-loathe or becomes a real monster.

All you hear when you cross the cave is a whisper in a voice:

"Am I a monster? "