365 Days

Love. It has never been easy for me. Maybe because I have never felt it. Or maybe because I have never seen it. My parents said they love me. My sister said she loves me. My friends tell me they love me. But I have never felt it. I don't know what love is to be honest.

"Is that why you said no to me," asked Druv. His eyes tired from his struggles. His eyes hoping for a change in my answer.

I'm not what you think I'm Druv. I'm complicated in many ways and I know what you are going to say but pause ok ... I don't want to feel the beauty of love Druv. I don't want to see it. At least at this point of life.

I knew Druv was not happy with what I said and I also knew that we wouldn't talk about it anymore. This was our last coffee before he moves to Australia for his job. The last time when I could properly see his eyes, hear his smile and feel his presence. I didn't want it to end but I had no choice.

Druv finished his coffee way before me. I guess he wanted to leave before me. As he got up, my mind started feeling anxious, knowing that I will only meet him after an year.

He got up gave me a hug and just stood there looking at me for a minute. It was after removing his jacket that I actually saw what was on his forearm. A tattooed M. M for maya

"I'm not going with a happy heart maya. And you know that as well. But I'm going with hope. That after one year, you will be ready. You can never see love Madhavi. You can only experience it. I want us to experience it together. I hope we can."

With that Druv left. Leaving me with a train of thoughts. As I sat there finishing my coffee, I knew maybe I had a chance to experience love again. Maybe I might be lucky I just have to wait for 365 days.