Where Lies My Balance

Coming closer

Moving further

A step in front

Run two steps back

What to trust

What to believe

I must see the truth

In reality

Whom to trust

Whose side to believe?

Torn apart in misery

I have no clarity

Just listen

Don’t hasten

To support any side’s beliefs

Straddle the line in between

If that’s what I must

To keep my sanity

A burden to carry

I can’t any longer tarry

In fear of crumbling

Under all this animosity

How long can I hold on

Without lashing out

How much longer can I suppress

All my unhappiness

But wait! Hold on

I might already have

Crossed the line to misbehaviour

Inflicted hurt for hurt

And wound for wound

Till the other is leaking out a great flood

Of all her anxieties

From the holes of her wounds

Mayhap she’s also human

Not the monster I supposed

After all, she too hurts

From the same abrasions

I suppose too strong are my convictions

Now it is time to let them go

I can’t help but recollect

Those rosy days

The days of my ignorance

My incapacitation

When I didn’t ken the situations

Now my gut is lost again

My heart is not so swell

And my mind drifts as well

Where lays the balance?

Do you think I can reach it once again?