Stifling Waterworks

I try so hard

To make it stop

Because giving up

Is laying all my cards out

To let them fall

Is to show that I can be hurt

But I can’t bear to feel small

Either way it all just bursts

Every time I hurt

It makes me want to scream and shout

And pull my hair out

So to make them feel the same I am curt

Trying to make them change is worthless

From bad to worse my emotions range

I just want to retaliate

I hover on the brink of full-blown waterworks

It’s so hard to keep it bottled up

But weakness is always taken advantage of

So I harden my face to marble

Stoic and impenetrable

Throw all of my walls up

Every brick, stone, mortar barrier I can make up

A big difference though it’ll make

You’re powerless when the ones who hurt you

Should be your own

This is just another phase

In the walk of strength

When you’ve borne the hurt of family

But still managed to stand tall

No one else can make you tremble again

Or weaken your walls

You’ll grow to be stronger

Face people who can’t hurt you

By taking advantage

Of your own emotions

I suppose everyone gets hurt

At least once

By feelings of love

Real or perceived

It makes us wary

Next time

Won’t be taken off guard

So easily

And hopefully, there will be no hurt

The next time