Try To See The Person Beneath

I am a girl lost to her woes,

Thinking I am the only who has those.

Every step I take needs rethinking,

Every move I make needs adjusting.

I cry when I am alone,

But I smile when I am in a throng.

I laugh to distract my peers,

To guide their eyes away from my tears.

The world could never understand me,

Or maybe I haven’t really been easy.

My insecurities rule me,

Making me powerless but slowly.

At the end of the day, when my mask comes off,

There is no one to see the one behind all the show off.

The emotions feel irrelevant at that time,

The secrets deciding the punishment of the crime.

Deceiving people was never what I wanted,

But not getting hurt can never be warranted.

The dull ache in my chest creates a torment,

Keeping me from becoming a dormant.

My eyes were never covered or hidden,

Even then nobody could sense the mayhem.

The words I spew are so convincing,

That no one tries to see the person they are covering.