Sober

It's funny how life turns,

Life will turn on you,

But I've never

Never knew I would turn on myself

Destroy myself, kill myself nor relapse 

I never knew how hard I needed fixing.

Till he showed me my scars,

Till he opened up my wounds,

Till he touched me without my consent 

Till I became the main source of my own pain. 

Yes! Yes I failed

Failed to stay sober

Failed to say anything

I keep tossing and turning

Its like ..I need pills to feel alive

At the same time getting killed by those same pills

"I love you" I said to my reflection

And along I didn't realise that my shadow actually didn't believe me.