Out, Till When?

In today's concrete Jungle,

I am lost in the loop of life,

I want to identify myself,

To discover the inner self.

I am lost in nature's beauty.

I am exhausted for now,

I need support from each,

Lying amidst the sand dunes.

I am thoroughly drenched:

In the torrential downpour.

They are the usual obstacles,

Gathered from the life's clouds.

I am puzzled in many ways,

I have no idea to get around,

Squatting on the river's bank,

Ideas are shaping in my mind.

I have lost count of the stars, 

They constantly blink at me.

I am relishing this moment,

Of finding myself in the open field,

Enjoying the stars and the moon.

I am tired of exploring myself,

Let me take the most needed rest.

I have not given up the task,

To recognize the unique tone,

Embedded in my soul for years.

I am not out of the race,

Please do not tick me out.

I am just lazing around; 

I will bounce back soon.

Well, I may be delaying it.

I am feeling drained out,

But I did not quit the game.

How to begin my next move,

When I am feeling worn?

This is a challenge for me,

With a hazy brain and spirit,

When the time comes around,

I have to get up and walk.

But how to get up and move?

I have lost my spirit,

The purpose of my life.

It's better to have a grip,

Before negativity grasps,

Me and my whole essence.