I Wish I Could Go Back

I wish I could go back

To the exact moment

Before every moment

I said yes

When I wanted to say no.

To remind me that

If being loved was dependent

On me breaking into pieces,

I can choose to keep myself together.

I wish I could go back to the exact moment

Before every moment

That I chose to say

What you wanted to hear.

To remind me that

If being heard was dependent

On me being silent,

I can choose to let my voice roar.

Oh, how I wish.

I could go back.

But oh how grateful I am

That my wish never came true.

Because in this exact moment

I am who I am,

I am where I am,