I never should have
I never should have
Cold dark room,
Why it is the only place I can hide,
I knew that he knew,
I really wished that I knew how much pain he was going give.
I heard footsteps outside,
The footsteps moved viciously with thuds,
I wished that I got a chance to ran for the muds. .
I dreamt of a world where I am happy,
But he was already looking for me.
He dragged me out from the closet,
I knew he knew that I was afraid
Cowering in fright, I pleaded
"Please spare me, don't do this to me".
But I could tell I already lost,
The alcohol and ego he depended on had already measured my life.
It was all my fault that I fell for his trap,
It was all my fault that I caused this mishap.
He thrashed me and punched me,
I never even dared to flee.
I am used to being thrashed,
I am used to him making me bruised,
The fake laughter, the broken smile
I'm used to it.
With the first strike I should have ran away,
I should have never tried to hide away.
Never ever I would have pretended that everything was fine,
I should have never tried to be fine,
I should have never tried to make you mine.