Gardish : Circulation
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A guy once told me that he loved everything about me,
And I assumed that he loved the fact that I take showers with water that's skin piercingly hot.
That majority of my clothes are blue and are made of denim,
That all I can think of every time I look at the streets from my window
Is how cool it would be if every thing was purple in color,
That I can't sleep properly if china dishes in my kitchen cabinet are not arranged according to size.
A guy once said that I make him complete,
And i wonder if he knew that no matter how deep
I breathe the vacuum in my lungs never seems to fill,
That there is a gnawing, hollowing darkness within me
That never goes away, even during golden hour,
That I am 21 and I cant solve a jigsaw puzzle all by myself
And the world out there expects me to solve my problems and deal with them,
That I have spent weeks trying to match the color of carpet with the colour of cushions
And never reached a conclusion.
A guy told me that he thinks I am perfect, and I wonder if
Someone told him that I make scented candles for a time pass,
That I pick the receiver of a dead phone and sing for hours ,
That I plant a tree every time somebody close to me dies,
That I have soil samples from different gardens that
I have spent afternoons witnessing innumerable sunsets preserved in plastic sealed pouches
A guy once told me that I make him feel like stopping in a spot
And I wonder if he knows that I watch myself go round and round all night,
Without getting tired.