Do You Remember?

Do you remember the summer

that I always sat on your lap,

so spun and laughing so hard

I guess we fell in love way too fast. 

You lit us both a cigarette

and I saw your eyes flicker

as were sweating in the heat. 

When your pupils were like pins

they were so beautiful to me.

Every time that your eyes met mine

the whole world just stood still. 

We stopped chasing those dragons 

and then September brought chills,

But I only knew how to love you

when I was not running or hiding

and if my lips were moving

Then you knew I was probably lying. 

Except all of those times when you 

would put your lips so gently on me

and I knew that you were not lying

because those times were and still are my dreams. 

We gave myself the needle and each time that 

I would be scared you would just hold me

 until I calmed down and then went right to sleep. 

That is when we decided to start 

telling people that we were clean,

But then I started waking up all alone

and it honestly just killed me.

I remember missing summer whenever

it would still be in full swing

It felt gone just as it was happening

because we were both slowly dying. 

That is why I always held you so tight

with my arms wrapped around your neck

I could feel the rhythm of your heartbeat

like it could nearly beat out of your chest

Our love was built off of traveling time 

and every flick and sizzle, I guess, 

was our very own speed of light. 

But when the fire eventually stopped burning

it only left us both feeling empty inside. 

So, we decided to try to plant a garden in ashes

but it just would not grow at that time. 

We loved in illusions and I suppose that 

we both just expected it to somehow survive

and in the end our love only left each other

feeling broken-hearted and just wanting to die. 

We gave myself the needle and each time that 

I would be scared you would just hold me

 until I calmed down and then went right to sleep. 

I believed in running the streets and the dope

while you were sitting and waiting,

 just always believing in ME. 

Dreams were a reality when you were right next to me. 

but ever since I have been awake, I guess that 

I just do not know what I should really believe. 

We gave myself the needle and each time that 

I would be scared you would just hold me

 until I calmed down and then went right to sleep. 

Perhaps nothing is a lie,

if those lies are our dreams

and maybe nothing is an illusion

if we are always asleep. 

So since I have been without you

I just do not know what to believe. 

I do not think that I would have gone crazy

if you would have just stayed with me

and maybe I would not feel so lost

if I still lived in that wonderful dream.