Deception

You don’t know me at all. 

My colors of joy

Absent with your 

Surroundings.

I often crave to show you

My true complexion 

Of red, yellow and purple 

But afraid I’ll be judged instead. 

I often get mistaken 

Misunderstood 

This is not me, 

But it’s me trying and craving

To fit in, to belong. 

Your thoughts often 

Cause me turbulence 

I wonder if I can ever 

Show you the real me 

You make me believe 

I’m the one who you want 

Me to be, instead of what I am. 

I have lacked the courage 

To show who I really am 

I’m gonna show you 

my true colours, 

Of red, yellow and purple.

Gonna let go of 

The black in me

That you have 

Made me become, 

I’m cheerful, 

I’m me and, 

I’m not gonna bury

Myself in the thoughts 

Of how you think I am.

I am, 

Who I decide to be, 

I’m gonna need the courage 

To admit it, to show it to you,

But one day I will have it, 

And I will be me, accepted.