Agony Of Life

Don't know why 

But I just want to die

This life gets me nothing but pain

And also I don't have anything to gain

Causing trouble

This is getting horrible

Life sucks

Like being sold for a few bucks

Drowned in the sea of hatred 

Bruised in the battle of trade

Pulled down to the ground

Searching support but none found

Try to understand me

Like birds do to a tree

Searching for life in the ashes of past

I for once want to slow down and stop running so fast

Don't know what I am chasing

Definitely not you sympathizing

Waiting to be cuddled

But Not as tight as muddled

Don't want to squeeze the life

Want to relish it

Don't want to run without knowing

But also don't know what's calling

Don't know what the future holds 

But present seems like a truth untold

Lost faith in everything

But still praying for nothing

The heart doesn't love anyone

Mind is afraid of someone

Maybe thoughts of oneself

Or maybe just myself

This present seems darker than night

Trying to get up and see if I could fight

But don't want to bruise me

Also don't have anything else

Every passing day feels like a nightmare

Feels like a bright future doesn't have its share

Trying to smile the hardest

Cuz I know what life means in its darkest

Hiding tons of feeling behind the closed lips

But still trying that others' happiness reaches its tips

Can say I am a good actor

Leaving out a fake laughter

Why can't you see that tear 

It's leaving a trail right here

Why you couldn't hear the cracks

When my spirit just breaks

I couldn't open up

My feeling is locked up

In a dark box, I can't open from inside

But effortlessly it would open from outside

You just need to learn that I am trapped in here

Cause my screams just won't reach your ear

Find me please come without any hesitation

Before I die forever due to suffocation

But for now, just look at me closely

Maybe I was shedding tears secretly

Try to understand the pain in my voice 

I am screaming without making any noise

Gaze deep in my heart just for a while

I bet you'll see the pain behind my smile.