A Promise

It won't be long before I am gone,

I know I promised not to,

But convincing myself to stay has become harder than ever.

A part of me aches for you,

A part of me wants to leave,

A part of wants you let me in,

A part of me wants you to let me be.



I can't stay away, how much ever you push me,

I know I will regret staying because staying means to kill a part of myself, 

I have been thinking about what to do,

I think I know better than this

But still, I seem to knock on your door again because I promised not to leave.