It Hurts So Bad

There's so much of you here all around

The way you loved I'm sure nobody ever can

You had that in you.....To make me smile even in the worst situations

But now this is also a fact which we can't deny......

You have that power too over me which can make me feel wrecked in a few moments only

You really have no idea what I go through each day

Seeing you like this with someone else.......it kills

I loved with all the intensity and purity and sincerity........

I still do even after all that

There's a reason always for whatever I do

I only wish you understood this and trusted me bit

The stronger I try to get the weaker you make me

The more I try to put my life back together the more you mess it up

Not that I don't love you....but I want to really see you happy

And if that means to be with someone else I'll try to move away

If that makes you think I'm not affected then I can do really nothing

Just because I smile always does it mean my heart doesn't cry ever?