The Unsaid Words

FIRST DAY

"Ana ! Ana! Get up, you will get late on the first day of your office" my mom was trying to wake me up at the highest pitch as I was still in my sleeping mode and was enjoying my fairy tale dreams.

Yes! Its my first day at my new office. I will be joining there as cluster head.

After two years of experience, I have achieved this place.

My dreams are big, my choices will hopefully be right. With this thought keeping intact, giving mom a Good Morning Kiss, I finally wake up to get ready.

Yes, I am nervous, it will be a new place, how I will be able to cope up with new things, new pople around.

I don't even know anybody out there.

With little nervousness and anxiety, I packed up the bag and started for the new venture.

I have TVS Vespa to ride in the gullies of Agra. I love riding. I feel like a bird who have wings.

Office is around 15 minutes from my place and with my speed I am on time.

I parked my vespa in the parking and then as Cluster Head moved inside the office.

Ohh shit!!! What have I landed myself into??? Sorry for the use of words....

I am the youngest member here and yes the youngest with the age gap of 20+ years....

How can I head them when all the members are 50+ while I am just 23 years old...

Uff its going to be really tough for me....

Still I am Ana who can do anything, achieve anything....

With my charms I have the capability to win every battle.

Going through new things, spending time with oldies not really heading them but learning from their experince, my day came to an end with my last 10 minutes conversation with my Director Mr. Ashish Verma.

He is a fine man, little rude but comparitively a nice man.

He just confirmed about the day spend and I left for the back home with a kinda satisfying smile on my face.

My first day in new office ended on a good note. I will definately need some time to merge into this new atmosphere.

For right now I miss my old place and friends a lot.....

FIRST MEET

My first week in the office ended up smoothly. No new members, just few oldies, not to be mentioned actually not really important.

There is Mr. Kamal, Mr. Sharma, Mr. Ashutosh and Mr. Pathak who take different classes and yes there is one more some Mr. Srivastava, he hasn't turned up yet for the classes.

Oops!!! I forgot to tell, I work in a coaching centre, where we help children to achieve the target of becoming IAS, IPS officers.

Yes, the names sound big but its good to head them.

Hushhhh!!! Its a kind of secret, few students are elder then me too...

Anyways, this a new week and lets see how it goes. My director and the faculty members are very supportive and helpful to me. They really boost me up.

Ohh!! It's a new news ..... I have two directors or boses.. Mr. Srivastava is one of them... One more oldie NOOOooooooo..

The day was its peak and then enters the best part of my office cabin. My name plate which will hung at my office door...

It reads

"Anvesha Winget- Cluster Head"

I feel so proud of myself. Yipee I am at cloud nine right now. So! So! Happy!!! 🙂

I don't know from where the confidence have increased. Now working will be more challenging yet interesting.

I started working casually, but then there is a knock at my door and quite good looking man said "May, I come in?"

It wasn't that there was movie like flow of breeze or music in the background. Nothing happened like that but a smile came over and very willingIy I said "Yes, please"

Smart, little lean, wearing a pink coloured shirt introduced himself " Hi! I am Rohan, Rohan Srivastava."

Ohh!! He is my boss, my director. Out of courtesy, I stood and shook hands with him and he asked me to be comfortable.

Finally! Not an oldie and yes a smart Guy too....

He is comfortable, not at all bossy like, no attitude and very down to earth.

My 10 minutes conversation brought a smile and then he left for the class. Oh yes he takes reasoning classes.

The little did I know that this 10 minute conversation will lead to something very special.

AS SAID, IT GOES ON!!

It's been a month in the office and I am being pretty comfortable and happy.

The friendship between Rohan and me have grown. It is may be because of his sweet nature or his ease or our just "SAME AGE", it's easy with him.

He is more like a friend then like a Director. We normally steal some time to have lunch together, we have office tea together.

We share our families, likes and dislikes. It could be termed as attraction but I think its just an easy atmosphere blending into a good friendship.

He is pretty good at his work and sometimes praises me too for my work.

The best part about him, is that he respects elders. He touches feet of all the members elder to him.

I still remember that instant where when one day when I had to go for shopping and to save time I asked my mother to meet me at the office.

My director or rather my new friend touched her feet too. The gesture touched my heart too...

Oh! Oh! I am talking about him only. Anyways, the office is cool. It's getting comfortable and happy. I am enjoying working here.

One fine morning, I got another knock at my door and I was about to welcome another new comer.

A little short heighted, a little rude and arrogant introduced himself in full attitude.

"Hi! I am Yuhan. I want to meet Mr. Sharma"

Ohhh! Is he angry??? But why??

I thought just seeing him.

Stiil out of courtesy, I offered him seat and asked for Mr. Sharma.

"Anvesha! He is our new English Teacher, Yuhan"

"Hi! Yuhan, Anvesha"

I extended my hand to shake his.

"Hi" ... that's it, not even a smile in return of my Hi.

But less did I knew that this rude Yuhan will become my bestest of friend and will be considered and will be the cupid of my life s.

"Yuhan, why are your so silent??" My Normal question to him on daily basis but being so stubborn he never reveals anything.

Office is now getting much fun and excited with Yuhan and Mr. Pathak sense of humour. Pathak ji is very good with mimicry and Yuhan adds up with him.

But there is something lacking in Yuhan. He has very deep eyes, he never ever reveals himself, his smile never touches his eyes.

May be some day I will be able to know him and his story.

I never thought the new place will become so easy and comfortable in three months. I am liking the work, the place and moreover I am liking the people here.

Ohh!!! On this note, its only one month left for my birthday and I am super exited ........

THE BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS!

It's my Birthday Today. Yeah I have turned 24. I am always super exited to celebrate my birthday and is ever ready for the day.

Taking blessings and love from Ma and Papa, I head towards the office. Really excited to celebrate with all.....

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL"

Yuhan shouted at his highest pitch and wished me giving his slight small side hug.

As soon as I entered my cabin, my table was decorated with a cake in the centre and balloons all over it. I loved it.

"Thank you Yuhan", I replied back with a widest smile on my face.

I look through all the faces around and there were Mr. Verma, his daughter, Mr. Sharma, Mr. Pathak, Mr. Kamal everyone, but someone was missing.

Yes, Rohan was not there.

Birthday celebrations began with the cutting of the cake, indeed it was a lovely suprise arranged by Yuhan. He is lovely.

"Happy b'day once again Annie, may u get the best of your life" he said.

"Thank you so much Yuhi" I replied with teary yet sweetest smile, I can return back to him.

Oh! I forgot again, the bond between Yuhan and me have grown superbly. He treats me like his younger sister and we have given each other nicknames too....

YUHI AND ANNIE..... the sweetest names .....

Morning birthday suprise was lovely but there is still something missing.....Rohan!!

I checked my phone inbox messages, my wats app again and again...

"Still no message" I cripped seeing my phone. Does he even remember the day!!

It was when we were celebrating my day and I was treating all with Pizaa and Coldrink, here enters Mr. Rohan with a large box of chocolates and a teddy bear which states HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

He forwarded his hand "Happy Birthday Ana!" Little shocked with word or rather with my nick name I took his hand.

"Thank you Rohan" I replied back happily .

Yes we have reached to this eara where we have started calling each other by the first names...

He didn't joined us for the party and left for his class.

I left early that day as my evening was already planned with few of my old friends. I said byee to all but before leaving I moved towards his class to say last birthday byee to him too.

He was busy in taking lecture but seeing me, came over an joined in the lobby. He aplogised for being late in wishinh me as he was busy all day long.

I speak lot but when I am in front of him my words leave my side and get lost in his eyes and his expressions.

Is he really my real first crush or it's something else... let time be the better judge...

"Hey! Ana can we have a birthday selfie together" his words cracked my line of thoughts and dreams and got me back to the reality.

"Yes! Of course" with a smile, I opened up the front camera and clicked a beautiful smiling pictire of us together.

Saying a small good byee I moved towards my other party location. My friends were waiting for me and here comes the other suprise.

"Happy birthday Ana" all shouted together and then my favourite chocolate cake with gems was there. I love it. We were all sitting and having fun when my phone buzzed "Rohan-work Calling" my innerself jumped in happiness but just to be little naughty I handed over my phone to my male friend Meher and asked him to pick up and say "Ana will call you back soon"

He did as I told him to do so but asked the reason behind it, I ignored the question but my innerself knew that I was doing it desperately to know whether he gets jealous with my male friends or not.

I called back may be after 5 miutes. "Hi! Rohan you called up, I am little busy with the party"

"Hi! Anvesha, just wanted to ask where are the drawer keys?"

ANVESHA- shouty jealously may be ...

"Oh! It's there with Mr. Sharma" I replied with an anxiety, why he needs the key, they are an irrelvant thing for him.

The call ended and I resumed back my celebrations.

Going back home, talking about the day long celebrations and showing gifts to ma & papa, I sorted out to sleep and then my phone buzzed with a message...

"Happy birthday to the most beautiful girl Ana. May you be blessed with all happiness and may the smile rest upon your face.

You look the prettiest when you smile, keep that smile intact always.

You looked beautiful, pretty, no words to describe your innocence today...

Lovely it was...

Good night and loads of love ❤️ ❤️to you

Rohan"

I read and re-read the mesage and clinging to my phone I rested on my bed and get off to sleep with the sweetest and widest smile of the day.

My birthday ended with a great note and a lovely message....

THE FIRST REAL CONFESSION....

The life, the office was going smoothly and happily. The work was now more comfortable, me, Yuhi, Rohan and Pathak Ji would steal some precious moments for the day to day to have lunch together and belive it we end up with laughing all our heart out. Its always fun.

I have now started feeling like a part of this place. We share our lunch, our worries, our thoughts and yes our writing too.

Yuhi and Rohan share their poems, writings and verses together and for me ........I become a good listener.

"She is a tender petal of the most beautiful flower...." said Yuhan with a smile

"But, this is my bad luck not to have an endless hour"

The rhyme waa simulataneously completed by Rohan.

"Fantastic you two, it is even making me to write one, may be I will also start writing, Yuhi you need to help me" exclaimed me with super excitement.

"Anytime sis, but for now I have to leave for class. See you guys in an hour."

Yuhi left us for the class and I get back to my work while Rohan got busy on his phone.

"Hey! Rohan listen to this...

She was the kind who'd ditch clubbing for long walks in the park.

She'd rather choose the simple pleasures of life than the luxurious glitz and glamour"

I just narrated the few lines came over my facebook page.

"Isn't it so me" I said "I really want this, only me and my love sitting and chatting for long hours"

With a smile, I looked towards him for a response. The response could be anything in connection to the lines or our talk but to my suprise he kept mum and was just looking at me without even a blink.

"Common Rohan say something" my inner consious was shouting at the loudest pitch.

No doubt, his mouth doesnt uttered a word but his eyes were saying or rather narrating a story.

"Rohan!! What happened, why have you became so silent. Couldnt understand the lines.... ha!ha! Ha!"

I giggled out just to make the atmosphere little light.

"Ha!Ha!Ha! Very funny Ana! Yes you are right, I didnt get it. Kindly explain."

"Sorry, I dont have time Mr. Director. I have work to do...May be some other day" I replied back and we both started laughing.

This was the ease we have. We both knew there was something between us but none of really say it. There were emotions shouting from those unsaid words.

Our unsaid conversation was interrupted by the entry of Mr. Verma and his daughter. It was Mrs. Verma's birthday and they came over to invite us all for the dinner party at his place.

A birthday party... it would be fun...

As sson as Yuhi came back we all started planning about the gift and everything.

Pathak sir chose to go by himself along with his wife.. while I being alone Yuhi and Rohan suggested that they will pick me up from my place and then we will go together.... cool enough.

We decided the gift, bought a beautiful bouquet and I headed back home to get ready for the party. I chose to wear black and let my hairs open. I look pretty enough and was beautifully dressed for the occasssion.

As per the pre-decided time they came over to pick me up and we headed for the venue.

It was a nice house, only staff members and few other guests may be their relatives were invited.

The entry was superb as Mr. Pathak complimented on my looks.

The party was cool, we ate, we laughed and yes we danced too. Rohan is so bad in dancing, while Yuhi and Mr. Pathak showed some good moves...

After having a rather fatty dinner we headed back the same way, we came.

Yuhi has little problem travelling in car, so while coming back he chose to lie down at the back seat.

I was sitting in the front seat with Rohan. Why I am having butterflies in my stomach... why my inner self want to jump in happiness...

Yuhi chose to sleep and Rohan got emotional ...

"Ana! I like you, I really do but we both come from so different atmosphere, so different culture. You are so outgoing, an open and independent girl while girls at my side so silent and are supposed to be at home"

"Rohan" I interrupted him but lack words for that too...

"Can I take your hand in mine" asked Rohan....

With little nervousness I handed my hand to his.

"Will this lead to us anywhere, when we are not meant to be together" I asked him the question with numerous others in it.....

He said nothing and stopped the car in front of my house, I got down and said byee to him...

I went to bed that day with humerous questions in my mind and butterflies in my stomach. What is going to be the future ?? What is going to be the destiny??

YUHAN'S CONFRONTATION

“Its all about the magic,

To lose him would be tragic.

It was destiny’s conspiracy to bring us closer,

Now the question is

How to cross this roller coaster….???

With ultimate thoughts, questions and butterflies from the last night, I dressed up for the office. Little did know what I was about to face in the office.

As I entererd the office Yuhan was already there waiting for me…

“Good Morning, Yuhi, How are you feeling now?” I asked him without actually having a direct eye contact.

“Good Morning Annie, I am fine, Hope you are also good. Had a tough night yesterday?” he asked giving me a witty, sarcastic or rather an angry smile….

I just looked up to him and without giving any reply, I opened up my laptop and started working.

He handed me a piece of paper and said

“You want to read my new composition, I have prepared it yesterday night only…..”

With little anxiety and nervousness, I took the paper and read the title of his composition

"SILENT LOVE”

I continued reading the lines

“oh! Love! Love! Love!

Your know her smile makes me remember the blooming of the flower,

I only want to spend with her an endless hour.

But what will happen if this relation goes far,

Would it seems delightful or find bizarre……”

I couldn’t read more, I knew what Yuhi wanted to know. He wanted to know the truth. I couldn’t say anything just looked at him with a teary eye and he just took my hand and said

“ Annie, I am always there for you, tell me..”

There was assurance in his words… I know he means it, no matter what will happen, he will always be there for me, he will remain with me.

I told him everything, our meets, our talks, our unsaid confirmation to relationship, our unsaid yes, his lack of assurance, and the problems that could be faced if we go ahead with this relationship. The most important thing his lack of commitment and how he is afraid to move ahead, Rohan’s lack of courage and guts to move ahead in the relationship. Tears started prickling down from eyes to cheeks.

“Annie, I know you, I understand this situation, I have been through this rather I am in this situation. I don’t want you to become second Yuhan, I don’t want you to go through the same pain I am in. Believe me Annie it hurts, it does hurt a lot. Don’t walk the path which cannot be unfollowe….”

Yuhi handed me a glass of water. I composed myself and gave a reassuring smile back to Yuhi. But something triggered me

How does Yuhi Knows about it….??? Who told him about it ????

“ Yuhi, how you came to know about it?? Who told you?” I asked him

“Annie, I stayed with Rohan last night, as it became too late. After dropping you back, he told me everything. That he likes you but can’t make a commitment for it.”

Our conversation was halted by Mr. Pathak’s entrance and soon after that Yuhan left for the class and I got busy with my work back.

During the lunch hours, Yuhan left for the day as he had some work.

“Annie, I will be leaving early today, as I have some work… You take care and don’t think about it too much.. meet you tomorrow.”

I waived byee to him and got indulge back into my work. I heard a knock at my door. Its Rohan.

“Hi! Ana, How are you?” he asked smilingly..

“Hi, Rohan, I am fine. How are you??” I replied back with the same smile.

“Rohan, tell me one thing, how come Yuhan know about everything? You told him about us?? You shared with Him?? I asked Rohan interrupting the unending silence between us.

“Yes, Ana! I did tell him about us. When I dropped you back, I was so lost and was on the verge of crying, I had tears in my eyes. I felt so helpless and was not able to handle that helplessness, which made me narrate the entire thing to Yuhan. I told him everything which was there in my heart . Ana, I really really like you but we can’t have a future together. I cannot see us together and I am scared that even if we two get married, we won’t be able to live happily. It’s not just the difference of our CULTURE but also the difference in our upbringing.

At my place, girls are just counter parts to men, they don’t have a right, they don’t have a voice. You are independent, smart, outgoing, open but “OUR CULTURE” don’t accept that.

He just said it without any pause and somewhere now I got to understand the deep meaning behind Yuhan’s words to me, his advice and his warning to me and his fear for me.

“Rohan, I am understanding what you want to say, what’s your point. But my feelings are also there and so do yours…..” tears came back to my eyes.

Rohan stepped ahead but stopped.

“Hey! Ana, Please don’t cry, I can’t see tears in your eyes, I can’t see you crying.

“Rohan, let’s not be judgmental, let’s be friends first and leave other things on destiny. God is better judge of the things, let him decide what is good and what is bad for us, what is right and what is wrong. Till then let’s be happy and enjoy this feeling we have.”

There was a smile on his face and giving me an assuring hug, he handed me a glass of water and he said “of course! Ana, Of course.”

Now, I am finally relaxed with all the things out. May be will be able to work out, maybe we will be together, maybe we will walk ahead and we could be one.

Finally a hearty and healthy smile came back on my face and I headed back home with little hope and little nervousness intact.

“Good night Ana, take care… we will be able to make it. All will be good.” I received a message from him.

“Good night Rohan, 🙂" were my words back to him……

THE UPS AND DOWNS - RELATIONSHIP

Relationship ….it was still a question for me atleast . Though we have talked about it and have agreed on the fact that let’s leave the things on destiny ,let’s go with the flow .

We talk to each other , we share our lunch , take time outs for chats , long talks on phone and try to spend the most time together.

But at the back of the mind, we both knew that this status is not “Just friends”. It is more than that …..

Now we share things and somewhere the expectations have increased in terms of emotional connectivity among each other.

We, at least I expect him to understand more of my unsaid words , be there with me emotionally and understand the things out of me without saying.

We talk almost everyday with each other on wats app and other social networking sites.

The talks were very normal, sharing family things, photographs , normal jokes and images .

Good Morning and Good Night became a part of the conversation without it, the day seems incomplete.

When we were getting comfortable with each other, something happened , which was at least not thought or expected by me.

One fine afternoon, when I was alone and comfortably seated at my office, my door opens and enters Rajiv and Rahul . They are Rohan’s cousins and are regular visitors too.

I have a very casual and normal relationship with them .

Just formal hi, hello. They live in the same apartment with Rohan .

‘Hi, ma’am how are you” said Rajiv more sophisticated among the two.

‘Hi Rajiv, hello Rahul , how come you both are ? Please have a seat …’I replied back smiling.

Back of my mind, I was creating a relationship with Rohan, so I have to be good with his cousins too.

“We just came over to pick up few notes for big brother Rohan”

“ohh!!” I exclaimed.

“So Ma’am have you met Rohan bhai today, though he has been busy but must have come to meet you.”

They were pulling my leg and it was uncomfortable for me. I don’t like people entering my personal life and space without my permission, without my choice.

I felt little uncomfortable and did replied little rudely

"That’s none of your concern Rahul, whoever I meet or don’t. That’s my choice.”

There was a sense of drawback on their faces. Their expression changed and soon after that I got a reply which I never thought off and gave me a stepback.

“ohh! Common Ma’am, big deal…. It was a joke… ATLEAST YOU CAN SMILE NOW, FOR THIS INNOCENT JOKE AND INNOCENT FACE JOKING… CAN I SEE A SMILE NOW PLEASE…”

I was shocked, not because the words were more than friendly, but they were the exact words I told Rohan, a day before when I was chatting with him last night……

He has shared our personal talks with them. They both had a winning grin on their faces and I can’t help but to hide my astonishment and shock.

“Byee Ma’am, seems we should leave”

I couldn’t respond back. Soon they left, I took my phone out of the drawer dialed Rohan’s number.

“Hi! Ana, How are you?” he said picking up the call.

“Hi! Rohan, just tell me one thing, did you shared our personal talks and chats with Rajiv and Rahul?? Did you let them read the chats??

I was not in the state of mind to reply back his question or ask about his well being.

“Oh! Ana. They must have read it, my phone is always open and out. Big deal about it.”

I hunged up the phone, without even waiting for the response or listen anything further.

Tears came prickling down my cheeks. I couldn’t understand how to react or what to be done. I felt cheated; I felt somebody has opened up my things like a book. I couldn’t control myself and without thinking I dialed up another number……

“Yes, Annie…… I have a class, tell me fast” Yuhan said picking up the call.

“Yuhi….. I need you here…”

I hunged up the phone crying, as I couldn’t say more and kept crying badly… loosing myself.

It was not more than 5 minutes, Yuhan was standing by my side with a glass of water, he handed me the glass and a tissue paper.

“Annie, what happened, please tell me” Yuhan was holding my hand and I told him the entire scene. How I felt betrayed and how I am feeling cheated and opened up.

“Annie, this was the reason I was stopping you to go or walk on this path. You have always asked me what’s my story? Listen. I really love a girl but she doesn’t love me back, may be she has her own reasons but those reasons are not good for me. They are killing me from inside, they are affecting me. I love you my sis and I don’t want you to go through the same pain by which I am going through. Please Annie, this is not love. This is just attraction. You two are not meant for each other. Annie, please I can’t see you loosing yourself.”

He choked saying that, I wiped off my tears and closing down my eyes said….

“Yes, Yuhi, I will try to be strong. Thank you for being there.”

“Annie, I am always there for you, I am sorry I have to leave for the class.”

“It’s ohk Yuhi, I am also leaving back home.” I said assuring him.

That day I packed my bag and keeping a prospect and thought in my mind I drove back home.

THE DECISION

“Everything doesn’t happen to let go…

you gotta hold on to something,

so that one day when you look back ,

you can remember what made you …

the person you are today.”

It wasn’t as if that the thing happened was too big to handle, may be it could be misunderstanding and could be handled carefully or maturely but none of us tried to sort out the problem.

Its three days since then, Rohan hasn’t tried to have a word with me. He hasn’t called or messaged me.

A line of crack has appeared in our relationship. Though crack was already there but now it’s is easily and clearly visible.

Yes! there are differences. Now its just that the differences are coming up openly.

It’s time for me to take up a decision. May be a break, a distance is needed between us two. May be time will only heal the distance, the difference between us.

I reached office and typed down a message.

"Hey! Good Morning, I want to meet you. Whenever free, call me and come over to office”. And press send.

I sent this message to Yuhan.

I can’t share my feeling with anyone else.

Since, the day I joined the office as cluster head, I have been receiving many job offers, there were many better perspectives too.

I thought to give it a call and see if anything would work for me. I have been avoiding them as I was comfortable working but as it is said, a small push can make a bigger difference.

I have got that push, the incident have hurted me badly.

While I was going through the mails and offers, I heard a knock at my door. It was Mr. Sharma, and a girl, may be of my age was accompanying him.

“Good morning sir, how are you?” wished him smilingly and gave a wink smile to the girl too.

“Good morning! Anvesha, I am fine. How are you?” He replied back with the same smile.

I offered them seat.

“She is Prathana , she will be joining from today as the new Personal Relationship Executive . She is here for the front desk reception for the students. You have to train her in the best. Finally a girl under you”, he said jokingly.

I didn’t say a word but smiled back. I was in real need of a girl in the office.

“Anyways, I have a class, I will catch you girls back later”. Saying that Mr. Sharma left us two.

Prathana introduced herself and making her comfortable I also replied politely.

She is nice girl, we both are of same age group and she is quite similar to me. She is bubbly, lively, loves to travel. We shared many things and I explained her prospects of our entry for students, our fee schedule and other things too.

“Hey! Annie, How are You?” I heard a knock at my door and Yuhan walked in.

“Hey! Yuhi, please come. I am fine. How was your day? Anyways she is Prathana, she has joined as PRE from today.” I introduced them both.

“Hi! Prathana, I am Yuhan. Welcome to the office.”

Yuhan was super formal. From day one rather from first meeting only Yuhi never liked or was never fond of Prathana. His distant choice of girls, atleast I can never understand this.

“Annie! Can we have lunch first please… I am super hungry.”

Sharing things and explaining the official duty I didn’t realize that it was the lunch time.

We all three had lunch together and it was normal. After that Prathana got to her work and I explained my decision of switching job to Yuhi.

The best part was, the way I thought he understood that distance was indeed needed and though the relationship was not there neither it can be formed, hence it should not be taken up for long.

Yuhi as usual promised to be with me in all my prospects and decisions. And having Yuhi’s support I started looking for better opportunities and better choices…..

THE RESIGNATION

I have finally taken up a decision to switch the job . I have got a good job of administration Head in a reputed school.

The salary package is more than the present and position is almost similar.

I have to join from the next month there, that means I have to resign here.

I have already shared the news with Yuhi, though he is sad that I will be leaving soon but happy that I have moved on and has taken a strong decision for myself.

He took a promise from me that I will always be in touch and yes I agreed to it very happily…….

Like every month, we have a staff meeting on every 1st of the month. I will be resigning during the meeting.

All the members were seated in the conference room for the meeting. Everyone was there except Rohan, and then he enters. I am meeting him after a week.

He looked at me and gave a small smile I returned back the smile but this time there was no warmth.

We discussed about the future targets and plans and then it was my turn to say. I looked at Yuhi for support and he showed me a thumps up…..

“As my both directors are here and the entire staff is here. I want to extend a great thanks to all for the support shown to me. With heavy heart, I would like to put forward my resignation and say that it will be my last month as Cluster Head”.

Everyone looked at me in shock and I turned my gaze towards Rohan.

I couldn’t understand the expression on his face, it seemed as if he wanted this to happen or he was waiting for it.

My decision was followed with long discussion but I stood firm on my decision.

Rohan didn’t say anything. He neither agreed nor disagreed.

He just kept staring at me for the whole time.

The meeting ended and without waiting I picked up my bag and headed back home.

I reached home and got a message from Rohan

“I know, why you have taken this step, we are not meant to be together. I am sorry if it have hurted you but yes that’s the way I am. We are different, may you achieve everything in life…..

May you be blessed with a man who can take care of you like a princess. We too are from different cultures we can’t be together ………

I am sorry Ana Please take care always…..

Rohan”

I read the message again and again and tears came down my cheeks.

Yes, we were not meant to be together. May be destiny was playing to get us together to finally drove us apart for ever

FAREWELL- THE FINAL BYEE ?????

My last month passed away quite smoothly and fastly.

I couldn’t understand where my life was taking me, whether it was really God’s plan to actually separate us

then why he made us meet or he just wanted to teach us a lesson…

As I said earlier, I moved ahead with the flow and worked as the destiny wanted me to.

May be something better was stored in future. I still have hopes in my hearts. As it says, distance makes heart grow more fonder and closer. May be this will prove true for both of us too.

It was my last day at the office. I packed up my bag with heavy and moved to end up this venture of my life.

I entered the office and yuhi was already waiting for me.

“Hi! Yuhi, how are you? Good morning”

I entered and greeted him with a smile.

"Hey! Annie, Good morning, all set…….

You are my strong sister”.

He got up and gave me a tight hug. I assured him with a wide smile.

The most difficult part of leaving the job is to leave yuhi and his ever boosting lines……

Yuhan has planned something for my last day, we all have decided to go to Mcdonalds for my farewell but before that we had a last meeting and I invited Rohan to join us for the farewell party.

He agreed and we all in our cars drove to Mcdonalds.

We all got seated and here comes my big surprise.

Yuhi has arranged a beautiful collage with all our pictures in it. Rohan , Prathana, Me, Yuhi everyone pictures and along with that a beautiful farewell card with his own composition, his own poem written in it.

‘Oh! Yuhi, it’s lovely, beautiful, Thank you so much, I love it……"

I was able to say just these words and tears came down my cheeks.

Even Yuhi got teary eyes but as he always do, he maintained a wide smile on his face.

We all started sharing our best memories with each other and Rohan said something which was at least expected and was unbeliveable for me.

“Anaꜝis the most prettiest girl, I have ever met. She always has a smile on her face and she always meets everyone with the best way she can. It’s my bad luck that I can’t have her, I can’t spend the rest of my life with her. She is the girl, with whom one wants to spend the entire life with, she is the one like a flower, and if I get with her maybe I will crush her. May be I won’t be able to give her, bestow her the happiness, which she deserves…..”.

Rohan was speaking in his flow, and it seems that he has forgotten that people are around him….

"Rohan, its fine let’s not talk about it, so everyone order, it’s my treat. What everyone would like to have” I changed the topic as fastly as I can to avoid tears.

My farewell was a part of my life where at one point I was playing a blind call, if he is meant to be with me, he will come to me or else this decision will help me to move on in my life and something better will stand for me in the coming future. I left everything in God’s hand and moved ahead…..

THE SECRET

My new day at the new job started with the sweetest message by Yuhan…

“All the best Annie! You will rock as always”

It automatically boosted my confidence and brought a smile on my face.

It is a nice place but I missed Yuhan a lot. His support is always missing. He has been there to tell me what is wrong or right.

Though his support is always there for me and I know whenever I need him, Yuhi will be there on just one call. He is just a message or call away.

It’s been a month since I have joined the new place. Rohan has called twice but that too casual and normal ‘how are you call’.

Yuhi make sure that he message me daily and boost me up.

He never talks about office and other things.

We have made up a plan to go out for lunch, all four of us, Yuhan, Rohan, Prathana and me.

Out of this, the least I have thought that the lunch will become my ‘SECRET REVEALER.’ …..

We all decided to meet at Bikaner and then move together. Rohan was supposed to drive and we were passengers for the day.

When we were all busy chatting, Pathak Ji along with his family walked in. We all asked him to join in but little did I knew that this lunch and his entry would bring up the biggest change in my life.

We were clicking pictures and suddenly Pathak Ji’s wife commented

"Rohan & Prathana click together common, you guys are a couple. Anyways also, you two are always spotted together.”

Indeed it was push and a drawback for me I looked at Rohan…. He said nothing but there was a blush on Prathana’s face. The moment I turned towards Yuhan. His eyes revealed many thing.

No… I was on the note that ‘DISTANCE MAKES HEART GROW MORE FONDER’.

Here the distance has created more distance. It has given replacement to him.

I have been replaced, rather he has the guts to sit in front of me and blush about his relationship status.

I couldn’t control myself and tears started coming down my eyes, to avoid the embarrassment, I got up and walked up to the water drinking area.

Yuhan followed me there… he tried to give a hand..

“Don’t! Yuhi……why you kept this hidden from me? why Yuhi? You are supposed to be my friend….” I yelled at him angrily.

“Annie! Relax. He is not good for you… Even for the fact we are not in talking term also. Yesterday, when you made up the plan for the lunch party, I did wanted to stop you but then thought that you should see yourself. He is not good for you.”

"The day you left, he shifted hi focus to Prathana. I never liked them but for your sake I kept sitting as I wanted you yourself should feel that thing between them…. And understand.

He does not deserve you Annie… he is not good for you. It was’nt love, it was just attraction Annie… I always say that don’t follow this line of path, it is useless and I don’t let you become another Yuhan…

Annie will always smile and will get the best of the things.. Annie! Please he is no good for you…..Don’t cry over him.”

He handed me a glass of water. I composed myself and moved ahead to the table keeping my head high. Yuhan held my hand and assured that he is there with me ……

Prathana looked over me … I smiled back and said “so, you two are a couple.” I gave a sharp glance to Rohan, he didn’t said anything.

Prathana replied shyly, “Oh Common Ana! Ma’am, No… they are just……..”

It was clear she was lying…. That day I came to know one more thing ….

Rohan had said one more lie to Prathana, that

I was the one who liked him, there were no feeling from his side… it was I who was chasing him and was behind him…he never felt any connection to me…

My trust was completely broken . I was completely shattered by the lie. Its better not to say then to lie about someone’s feelings….Rohan has done that.. he has again hurted me and again it is an emotional hurt.

Thanks heaven, Yuhan was there with me at that part of life, as It did broke me and Yuhi was standing there as a pillar for the support.

People do move on in their lives, in their relationships, but moving from the word was indeed felt for the first time or rather experienced for the first time.

Rohan has started new chapter for his life and it has given me a new beginning too.. no doubt it will take time to write the new beginning but I am sure I will be able to do it.

Yuhan being the ultimate support, helped me, was there with me in all scenes.

From sending ultimate stupid messages to regular calls, he did all to keep me happy. From sending funny jokes to motivating me writing stories and poems he was all there standing like a pillar.

He made sure that whatever happens at the end of the day I have a smile on my face.

He never talked about Rohan or Prathana, along with me he too hated Rohan’s lie…. And for me I am trying to move on….

Indulging myself into work and reading, helping me to sleep without thinking about my truth and his lie….

AN END, TO A NEW START

It’s been almost two months, since that secret revealer afternoon. I have tried to move on that lie….

Yuhan been the support I can achieve anything. He is being a true friend.

I have not been in contact with either Rohan and Pranthana, till one fine morning when I received a call.

“Hi! Ana, Rohan this side”

oh! his voice still gives goose bumps. Still I composed myself….. and replied in a firm tone.

“Hi! Rohan, ANVESHA this side. How are you?”

I pressurized on the word Anvesha, he has lost the right to call me by my nick name. Only my friends do that and he has lost that place.

“I am fine….. I am getting married this month on 16th ……. I want you to be part of it”.

Oh! this man has guts to invite me…….. I was shocked….

Keeping myself as much as firm as I can I said “Sure, message me the venue. I will be there. Congratulations !”.

“Thank you and I am sorry Ana” he said.

My mind was saying, I should hung up the phone but my words wanted to be out.

“Sorry for what Rohan, at least you stayed up for someone.” bye …..

We both hung up…..

He is getting married…. how can he have the power to call me up and invite me?

But I have to be strong and composed…….

I called up Yuhan that very moment

“Hey! Annie say what happened …… Good morning.”

Yuhi was in a hurry to go somewhere. I just said

“Yuhi! Be ready on 16th to go to marriage, we will be attending Rohan’s marriage”

“Annie, you are mad, you cannot walk down that lane again.”

“Yuhi, it’s now or never. I won’t be ever able to move on, if I won’t let it go in front of my eyes. Yuhi, Please, its important…”

“Fine Annie, we will talk laters…… bye sis…”

Finally, the day has arrived where a new chapter in my life has to be started….

With full grace and smile, me and Yuhi moved into the marriage hall. We made our way to the stage where the couple was seated. I handed them the bouquet and hugged Prathana.

“Congratulations dear! May you be blessed with years of togetherness and happiness….. God Bless You.”

And extended other hand towards Rohan and said smilingly.. “Congratulations Rohan”

They both replied in a smile and said “Thank you so much for coming Ana!.. It means a lot…”

I get a photograph clicked and came down. Yuhi maintained not to meet the couple, he had his own reasons and I respect them.

He accompanied me for the marriage, that was enough for me.

Rituals began to start and I watched them smilingly….

THOSE UNSAID WORDS WERE FADING AWAY SLOWLY.

The best is yet to come. I deserve someone better but till then my life has given me a story to write on……..

“Now its time to move on,

It’s time to grow on.

It is the time to learn to smile,

It is the time to walk another mile.

Every heart has a pain,

Only....

The way of expression is different,

Some hide it in their eyes,

Some hide it in their smile,

While...

Some hide in their words………………. “

The END