The Proposal

I Love You.

Wow! I cannot imagine the turmoil I had to go through to get to this point. All those moments when I was in a dilemma. To jump or not jump? What am I going to lose by jumping onto the other side of the fence? What about the things I’m going to break in the process? Even if I take the leap, will it work? I used to be so terrified. So terrified that I will hear the word “No”. But just thinking about the possibility of getting a “Yes!” created flutters in my belly. I dreamt of this exact moment a million times. A million times hearing “Yes!”.

I’m not sure how all of this started. Around 2 months back, I started having feelings. Feelings I’ve never experienced. Feelings blinding me of everyone, except her. At first, I tried brushing them off. But they kept coming back. I tried staying afar. But she kept pulling me closer. For we were a lot closer by then. Too close to abruptly break the friendship.

I still remember the day I saw her. The Girl In Yellow. Standing with her newly made friends. Enjoying her first maggie in the college canteen. Her smile ignited a wild curiosity in me. A curiosity I’ve never experienced. The kid in me took months to decode that curiosity. But, one thing I was sure of. This is one girl who’s going to stay in my life for a very long time. With that, I started towards the canteen. The first of many meetups to come. And, as I approached her, she turned towards me. I started introducing myself to my new buddies. Turning to her last, I smiled and said,

“Hi, I’m Krishna. Nice to meet you.”