Paradoxes

"You know what all the people have possessed different shades inside them sometimes they can fluctuate with each other. So I wanna being assure that in which shade you are right now I am talking with that person, is mine whom I know the most or something different from which is its part but I couldn't take it easy. It happens with everyone. Could you agree with this?

        That's why I need to know the person with all his shades, then it will become a complete understanding of it, here is when I talking about you, I respect you as a person with all you're shades, but like someone who loves the Light color most & the another one prefers the brighter one, so and but they all love the rainbow 🌈 but their is some invisible colors too inside the rainbow which I don't like this is totally feels with darkness like black holes, but in that case I can't say that I hate it, I need to accept it as a part of it, So that I. Because of this one thing I couldn't resist myself to gazing that sky, which is flawless, limitless and much more than its another things." I was blabbering in the flow and he was just listening me quietly as a gentle kid!

This is a year now & we met again without any reason, I don't know what attract him towards me , I am always asking him, 'I'm not that kind of girl which everyone wants in his dreams, 

You know I am a simple person with a complex middle class family which still want their young children to get married with someone only who's chosen by girl's Father. So I am unable to make sure my relationship between us. How could I? I don't want to be a reason for breaking 2 hearts alongside, one of my father and second one of that person, who loved me quietly, and in that conditions they both would be my most beloved persons ,How would've I choosen between two of them, it's too difficult to carry 2 heartbreaks which hurts you more than anything before, all the time a guilt is killing you from inside, that's why I can't make relationships at all."

I consider A Relationship with everyone else, which is our beloved ones, our own family members including Papa, mumma and siblings are those people which their single smile and a tear matters us alot, We cannot Throw it away from someone's trust, love & care but I want to feel their respectful gesture on me whenever they see me quietly, 1st relationship with my family, & 2nd relationship is with Books. and the biggest incarceration of human being

I hope You will definitely find someone who's as passionate as you but I can't give you the false assurances what I can't help it with me.

 Life is a Paradox & Relationships are just performing with Pandora's Boxes full of expectations & Challenges we found. Not a filmy thing that we always think like that it is! 

Be ready to spread all your shades of the colorful Spring!