No To Life!

Maa! I think I feel a lot.

Here, no one feels the way I do.

Nobody cares if I'm doing fine.

I know you do but you are far away from me.

When I wake up into an empty room,

I look here and there for blade.

When I don't find it anywhere,

I go back to sleep again.

On days, every part of me start to ache.

It feels like I was beaten up to the ground

but you know na it's just a heartbreak.

I tried making friends here

but they left after few days,

You said right ones will always be there

But you know what, no one stays.

I feel I would be left alone,

My heart would be broken,

All my love would be gone.

I feel like telling you that I'm tired.

Maa, you know na, I could never had

anything that my heart desired.

You may think that I'm a coward

And to be honest, I don't want

to carry anything forward.

I want to cry, almost everyday.

I try. I try. I try. But every time I fail,

I don't know where I'm heading to

I don't know if I'd drown or I'd sail.

I can't cry even when I feel the worst,

Maa, I can't even find the trail.

On days, I want you to be my side.

I don't even remember when was

the last time that I cried.

When I said I'm fine, I'm sorry I lied, 

You may feel I'm giving up too soon

but I swear Maa, I am really tried.

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P.S.

Hear them out if they want to speak,

Loneliness only makes them weak.