Mind Maze

It's hard to breathe sometimes, or sometimes you feel light-headed... Processing a plethora of thoughts per second is what my brain does.

Sometimes I feel my brain is the only thing that can and does tolerate me, not that it has any other choice. Most of the time I think I would have been better if that day I successfully committed suicide. It would have been calm, peaceful, stressless, and for what it's worth away from my own toxic thoughts.

But I guess as long as I'll live my brain will be subjected to the torture of overthinking. It is not that easy to leash, its like you're very very very tired, to the extent that your body has given up but you can't rest or sleep. It's like being on a rollercoaster ride. 

Even your body at some point starts to beg for mercy.

If fun how my mind is tired of overthinking and yet it can't stop thinking. How fast it jumps from one topic to another, how it curses itself for overthinking and yet never pays any heed to the damage it causes. 

To have it in any other way, god would I do be blessed.