Magical Relationship

“Where are you, Idiot?”

“What has happened, why are you behaving differently?”

These were my last messages that night to my friend, “Kabira”, as I call him (obviously, that’s not his real name!)

The next morning, I was on my toes, running late for the office, trespassing the City crowd and somehow managing to enter the office, my 1st day after training!

An hour later, sipping coffee, sitting in a corner of the big buildings, I was again having a clutter created out of overthinking on how and why my friend has suddenly started behaving differently, why is he rude and why the hell is he ghosting? He wasn’t online on any social platform! Hell! The overthinking was overpowering my head and that day and another night was completely filled with thoughts that were making me restless.

Now, I was someone who feared to face the darkness that I went through in my past while I was a patient of Depression. I started feeling the same darkness, suffocation, insomnia and the loneliness that was all healed up lately when this man, “Kabir” came in my life as a blessing. He rescued my soul and walked along as the truest of all friends. Now when he is not there, I started feeling depressed. It was a feeling where I was surrounded by people all day long in the office and home, yet I was alone inside.

I cried that night and texted him, “I insist, tell me the truth, I want to know what happened, what made you ghost from me?”. He replied, “Nothing, it’s all fine, just stay focused on your work. If I tell you something, you will be in a bad situation.”

I was blank already, the change in his behavior or he being out from my life had already damaged my brain cells, I was drowning towards the darkness already!

So, I insisted and finally, after a while, I received a long, in fact, a very long message.

:: That night ended and the next morning I called him after reaching the office and revealed that I too had feelings beyond friendship and we went speechless after just one dialogue each, “I love you, just stay!”::

So Kabir and Sherni’s (as he called me!) “love story” began. We were dreamers, we fell in love online, without touching or feeling each other in reality. Strange! But it happened. We were together "virtually", without having met once in reality, we use to feel each other, almost magically. We got the good & bad vibes, in just a word written or spoken over call.

We gradually became part of each other's soul where we understood each other with the least amount of words over text. That's what I call a Magical Relationship. The love was based on an understanding with no conditions and no expectations. We were in two different lives and states. Our match was just exceptional. For me, Kabir was my light and an escape from the darkness and for him, he felt complete after having me in his life.

We started dreaming about our togetherness, we planned our 1st date, our wedding proposals and what not!

Days and nights went by, we went through several ups and downs in an Online Relationship, figuring out how can we fall in so deeply when we haven’t even met once.

It was the beginning of the creation of another 2 States movie! Sherni (me) was from Delhi and Kabir was from Mumbai. 8 months passed in an online relationship and we started thinking, whether we will be able to meet even once in reality? Or this virtual relationship will go on and on? There were endless doubts and fears. But we crossed and overcame almost every difficulty together. Yes! Together by feel not touch.

The day came and we finally met in reality amidst all the city crowd, hiding from the knowns and unknowns around, we met for the 1st time.

To hide and spend time together, we entered a theatre and as a beautifully peaceful scenery appeared on the big screen, we were into each other completely, hand in hand, in the corner seats M28 & M29. Haha! I won't forget any single second that I spent with him on my 1st date. It was all new and magical at the same time. We were imagining ourselves on the bridge surrounded by water under a blue moonlit sky, as it appeared on the screen. Our hearts melted down and we kissed for the first time with tears rolling down from our cheeks, everything was magical! Like it was new yet good. I am still smiling at the thought of that day...

The next morning, he went back and I was scrolling our pictures that my Mum saw. I couldn’t lie her in the face and she simply said “No means No”, “You will not connect with Kabir ever if it’s beyond friendship” after I shared my story with her. It was shattering. I was not able to accept that whatever happened was not virtual or illusionary, it happened in reality! Damn it!

Now, will I and Kabir ever meet again, will our love story end, will we be together in life or will we never see or connect ever again? Well, Time may answer these questions...

Stay tuned for the next chapter of this story to know what happened next in the lives of Sherni and Kabir!

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Love and Respect,

Ananya Saxena