Luck In Her Unluck

This is not a story of luck. This is a story which is beyond luck...

Niharika Balan, at her three years, stood on the wooden bar separating rooms and listened. This girl is born in poorvashada and her horoscope says she took her mother. She wondered at that little age, how could the longitude, latitude, and planetary position makes her, her own mother's murderer.

But her paternal grandmother made her sit on her lap and told ...no Bala you are not a curse or murderer, you have a very beautiful horoscope, you have times..great and yet to come ..you are a lucky one ...

She never trusted it ..she told her imaginary friend none but the creator himself whom she wowed to marry when she grew up became her best friend ."Kanna, I may be unlucky...you are worse than me re..you lost everything..being God 

You laughed, made others laugh, you made yourself God right..."

Her Grandfather always told her, you have a difficult path, a different destiny, a unique one but don't worry ...keep going. There is nothing like unluck nor luck.

That was 40 years or more ago, Niharika had a life full of struggles. She stumbled, fell, staggered many times, and went through a roller coaster ride of fate but that fire in her which Purified and burnt eternally guided her to go and on.

Was it unlucky to end up studying and doing something one's mind does not approve of or appreciate? Then it was unlucky..luck according to her was that simple living which would give her satisfaction. Her father could not correct his decision he left her no choice but to make her own, leaving her to battle with a profession she could never get along with, she never could fit in, rupees or dollars nothing could tie her to that stable or stay ...would that be unlucky,

Luck never favour Niharika when she found her soul mate, who told her he never wanted to marry her, but it became a relationship of a lifetime. Niharika never got through that and whenever she tried to cut the kite off the thread she landed up sick in her mind. Luck or unluck what kind of a being together is that, support or an unhealthy bond which binds and unwinds yet never unties. It is her irony. Luck in her unluck.

Hard work is the only way that Niharika believed, she climbed the ladders of life in a real, tough way. She saw the heights as in snake and ladder and fell off that ladder into the snake's mouth, got entangled in the snake's tight hold.

She crossed seven seas, worked in different places, and lived many lives in one life. When she was a graduate student, she lived a whole life, she was part of several movements and programs.

When she did post graduation though she struggled with community life she wandered through sea shores coastal areas, forests, very remote areas, and rescue shelters. Luck in unluck she became part of many NGO s where she worked closely with people who needed her.

Niharika had a social life, a socialite one mostly. Her spiritual dimension was another, this was her greatest strength and power. She would battle the unluck that prevails with all the knowledge she had ..mastery of mantras, her awakened spirit which is blended with plant spirits ...herbs and shrubs. She had the command over spells that enabled her to combat or align with the universe and its forces.

Niharikas marriage happened at a time when the sun was over the equator, In her country, they called it abhjith muhoortham...so her unluck would be evaded. Though it was a marriage bond that never broke it stormed and hailed..but her daughter who she got prayer and penance was the luck.

Niharika had a life of irony, and contradictions whenever she reached fame, and defamation followed. She tried to stand for rights, her right or anyone's right . Even if it involved her survival she took up and battled until someone would stab from blindfolding her. She had to go through every known mess one person can yet unluck or luck did not matter to her ...

She saw every aspect of this life and met every good and bad person life can offer. But is it the planet, its position, its alignment and its relationship with other space objects that are driving one's life? Is it not karma that says what goes around comes around...that matters 

Luck never favoured but grace ..was hers. Gratitude was her way. In all her unluck Niharika found luck, something to keep her going.